Learn to Forgive Yourself Even When You’ve Hurt Someone Else

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“Be gentle first with yourself if you wish to be gentle with others.” ~Lama Yeshe

Think back to the last time somebody apologized to you about something. Did you forgive them? There is a very good chance that you did.

Now think back to the last time you harmed someone else. Have you forgiven yourself? Probably not.

We all make mistakes. Oftentimes, through our actions, somebody gets hurt.

During this past year, I served as a liaison between my fraternity and a seventeen-year-old cancer patient in a local hospital through the Adopt-a-Family program. This patient, Josh Goldstein, passed away around the beginning of March.

My responsibility as liaison was to have a regular communication with Josh. I failed in this responsibility.

In the month after Josh died, I was overcome by shame. My belief that I was a fundamentally good person was shattered. How could I be so neglectful? Why did I not spend more time with him?

This feeling climaxed during “Family Hour” of Rutgers University Dance Marathon (a thirty-two-hour, student-run event that raised over $442,000 for families that have children with cancer and blood disorders). I was standing in the rafters, listening to a speech by the mother of one of the families that we had helped.

I couldn’t bear to hear her thank us for all the wonderful things she said we had done when I felt, deep down, that I was a bad person!

I literally could not touch my friends who had been standing next to me because I might have contaminated them with the disease that was my poor character.

This terrible feeling continued, and tears began to stream down my face. Flashing before my eyes, I saw all the opportunities I had to visit Josh in the hospital but had chosen not to.

Then my memory came to our fraternity meeting where Josh’s death had been announced. His last wish had been that we would not forget him after he passed. I pictured Josh saying this over and over again.

And then a strange thing happened: I realized that not only was I not going to forget Josh, but that I would never make the same mistake again.

In an instant, I had forgiven myself, letting go of the pain and accepting that I could still be a good person even if I made a serious mistake.

How to Forgive Yourself Right Now

1. Accept yourself and your flaws.

Know that despite your flaws, you are okay as you are. Your flaws, rather than making you “less” of a person, are what make you who you are. What you think of as a defect actually makes you far more interesting to others.

You are not perfect. You make mistakes.

But you are also on a path of growth. Your mistakes and failures help you improve. As flawed as you may be, you must accept yourself, flaws and all, if you are to make progress in your life.

2. Remember that you are not a bad person.

You can do something wrong while still being a good person. A lot of guilt or shame can make you feel like there is something wrong with you.

Realize, right now, that there is a very big difference between doing a bad thing and being a bad person. Even when you do something that you regret, you most likely had a valid reason for doing it at the time (even if that reason doesn’t make rational sense).

You didn’t do something bad because you are a fundamentally bad person; there was an intent, or valid motivation, behind your action.

3. Talk to someone.

Sometimes you just need to get it off your chest. Talking to someone else about what is bothering you can have serious benefits.

  • Another perspective. When you are upset at yourself, emotions can cloud your reasoning abilities. A friend will often point out a reason why you deserve to forgive yourself that you never would have seen.
  • Social support. You always feel better when somebody else has your back. Knowing that other people are less critical of you than you are of yourself can be encouraging.
  • Therapy. Professional help may be necessary or at least a good decision in some cases. If your self-hatred seems insurmountable, you might want to consider this.

4. Talk to your internal voice.

It can be useful to “personalize” your internal voice. Imagine that there is some other entity that is thinking your self-critical thoughts and have a conversation with them.

It might sound silly, but you should give this entity a name, which will reinforce the idea that this voice is separate from you.

During your “conversation” I want you to ask your internal, critical voice what its positive intention is. This voice is saying what it’s saying for a reason. It might be to protect you, to prevent you from making the same mistake again, or to help you improve in some way.

When you realize that your thoughts of guilt or shame are intended for your benefit, it becomes easier to forgive yourself. You can find another way to satisfy that positive intent while reducing your guilty feelings.

In my case, one of the positive intentions of my internal voice constantly shaming me was to help me remember Josh after he passed. Since forgiving myself, I have dedicated each of my yoga sessions to Josh, which ensures that he will not be forgotten.

5. Do the best friend test.

Imagine your best friend had done exactly what you did and then came to you for advice. What would you tell them?

You would reassure them and tell them not to be so hard on themselves. You would tell them that everyone makes mistakes. You would tell them that they deserve to be forgiven.

Why can’t you say this to yourself?

(Erin Pavlina has written a fantastic example of using this technique that I highly recommend checking out!)

Forgiving yourself is far more challenging than forgiving someone else because you must live with yourself and your thoughts 24/7. Despite the challenge, emotionally healthy people must have the capacity to forgive themselves when they have made a mistake.

When you forgive yourself, you are not pretending as though it never happened. On the contrary, you are acknowledging that your actions have consequences. But the consequences need not include self-inflicted negative feelings.

Not forgiving yourself is like picking at an open wound; you are only making a bad situation worse. The wound is already there, but you do have control over your reaction to it, and you can stop it from getting worse.

If you forgive yourself when you make a mistake, it's easier to address the consequences of your action in a productive way.

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  • Namrata

    Just what I needed! I recently went through a brief moment when I did realise that it was my mistake and that I had hurt someone bad. It dint matter that the other person had also hurt me and hurt me more. I just couldnt deal with the fact that I might be a fundamentally bad person! But then I had to reason out between the incident and me as a person, just like this article talks off, and I feel better 🙂

  • desires1989

    Hey, I guess,in talking to your internal voice, it should be written depersonalize your internal voice rather than personalizing…..Just noted..hope it would be corrected..

  • this is so beautiful and deep and so true. thanks for sharing.

  • DannySCR

    This is very true! I read an article on here a few weeks bad about forgiving yourself and a message that stuck to me was ” treat yourself as you would a good friend in such a situation” and that applies exactly to what you said. Hope everythings going fine at Rutgers, atleast You’re football team is picking up!

  • The Purpose Hunters

    This was a great reminder and I love the best friend test. It can be so easy to go into judgment of self and carry that around for years. And it is easy to think, who cares this only effects me but the truth of the matter is, it effect everyone one in your life because the more stuff you carry around with you, the less of your true essence you allow other to see.

  • Hey Mikey … very nice realization and post. We are self-critical beings, aren’t we? So hard on ourselves at times. Good for you for coming out of that situation and learning a valuable lesson!

    Forgiving ourselves is tough, not ever judging ourselves in the first place is a great place to be too! If we can practice self awareness and observation by that “other you” as you say, it’s really effective.

    You made some excellent points which are really helpful.

  • The Brave and Happy One

    So much gratitude for sharing this!

  • Michael Davidson

    I’m glad you realized the separation between your actions and yourself. It’s one of those things that’s almost “too obvious”. It’s quite clear that the essence of our being isn’t a specific action we took, but for whatever reason we choose to put blinders on and shame ourselves.

  • Michael Davidson

    Thanks for the kind words! You are right though. Fundamentally, we should be less judgmental of ourselves. Of course, it takes time to cultivate that mindset. This post was more about band-aids you can apply in the short term while becoming less judgmental in the long term.

  • Michael Davidson

    Thank you for pointing that out. Accepting yourself has a trickle down effect because you can express yourself more genuinely to others.

  • Michael Davidson

    That’s a very good rule of thumb. And yes, Rutgers is doing quite well now! Unfortunately it has to be the year after I graduate 🙁

  • Michael Davidson

    Thanks for the kind words!

  • Michael Davidson

    Thank you! It’s tough….but easier to share than keep it bottled up inside.

  • Michael Davidson

    I’m sorry but I’m not exactly sure what you mean by this. Can you elaborate?

    I’m pretty sure it would be “depersonalizing” your inner voice to give it a name. Then it becomes a separate entity, rather than a part of yourself.

    Thanks for the comment!

  • leticia

    What if the person you hurt hasnt forgave you, and is constantly reminding you of the hurt you caused them, making it that much harder to forgive yourself? I know that its not right of this person its just emotionally abusing and the guilt and shame is building up. Im trying to forgive myself. And ive fought so hard for this persons forgiveness. I think i realized i need to stop asking for his forgiveness and work on me. This person constantly puts me down, breaks my charachterand just adds guilt. This article is very helpful.

  • Michael Davidson

    I think in that case it’s best to focus on #1 and 2, accepting yourself and realizing that you are not a bad person. Yes, they are making it more challenging to forgive yourself. But nobody other than yourself is relevant to this. You can forgive yourself without needing anyone else’s permission.

    I’m sure you already recognize this. It’s tough to put it into practice, but you just have to not let them control your relationship with yourself.

  • desires1989

    You’ve written this
    “It can be useful to “personalize” your internal voice”.

    Don’t you think if we want to see our internal voice as a separate entity, then it would have to be depersonalized so that we can realize that its that voice speaking, and not to be identified with that.

    Please let me know if I have misunderstood something.

  • Michael Davidson

    Thank you for clarifying. Now I understand what you are saying.

    You are correct, and personalizing is not the word I should have used there. A more accurate word might be “anthropomorphize” that voice, but I don’t know if that would have communicated my main point as clearly. When I said personalize, I meant to make it as though it were a person.

  • giftedwithbrokenness

    What about the possibility of making amends? I don’t think you addressed that at all.

  • Namrata

    Totally agree with that. Also it is a gradual process. Everytime I tried make a quick fix out of a solution, I fumbled. Accepting that change needs time, was the biggest lesson for me. 🙂 Thank you for the great article and apologies for replying so late 😀

  • Kyah

    This has really helped me, thank you.

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  • vinnikeez

    Even thought, you have to accept that someone(s) are angry which we deserve? Always remember this quote:-

    “If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, only see you for the mistakes you’ve made, if they don’t realize that you are not your mistakes, then they have to go.”

  • GettingMyLifeBack&FindingME

    I needed this outlet today. I keep telling myself that I have forgiven myself but I really haven’t. I keep punishing myself for all the hurt and pain I have caused the people in my life who cared for me the most. I feel like somedays I have accepted my responsibility for my actions and then It hits me that I haven’t. I keep telling myself that I am not a bad person and the even good people do bad things sometimes. I am sorry if this is rambling but I can’t talk to my friends as I am not sure they will understand anymore. I embezzeled money from a company I worked for and criminal charges were pressed against me, I now at 42 have a felony record and am trying to get my life back. I have never in my life broken a law other than a speeding ticket. I have always been a good person who has always put others needs before my own. This trait alone helped me get to this position in my life. I never was good at putting myself first.
    I look back and realize that I was in a bad relationship and I am trying to also accept the responsibility of letting myself be in a controlling verbally abusive relationship. When I say and type it I feel like I am using it as an excuse. I could never see what all my friends and family saw. How do I come to terms with that? How do I accept that? I want to let my past go and build my future, some days I really have it together and feel like I am on the right track, then wham I run into a wall and realize I am still punishing myself for my actions and not accepting my circumstances.. Like everything is an excuse to make me feel better about what I did.
    I could go on and on but just an outlet for people who don’t know me and my situation feels a bit freeing.
    Thank you!

  • GettingMyLifeBack&FindingME

    Love this quote!

  • JMO

    This is very good advice, although, i can not forgive myself for the things that I have done. If I imagined myself telling my best friend all the bad things I have done, I am sure that I would not get reassurance that I am not a bad person. They would think me to be a bad person.

  • JMO

    If you had criminal charges pressed against you and a felony record, that means you were already punished and did your time, so you don’t have to keep punishing yourself. It is now okay for you to move on in peace.

  • JMO

    Very good comment. I have wronged my own brother by speaking bad of him to everyone and anyone because of the pain I felt for him not being a good uncle to my daughter and being there for her because it caused me and my daughter great pain because she loved him so much. Still, it wasn’t right of me to keep talking badly about him even though I felt he deserved it. I know I hurt him, but he won’t forgive me even though I tell him and show him how sorry I am. How does one deal with this situation? What if you are treating someone else bad because of the way they hurt you? What if you have stopped feeling anger towards this person and start treating good and kind but they refuse to accept it or change their ways? I’m just so confused and I really wish that someone one day comes into my life, analyzes it, and tell me what’s going on.

  • JMO

    I think personalize was correct. I totally got what you were saying. If you personalize your inner voice, that means you are giving it , it’s own idenity.

  • GettingMyLifeBack&FindingME

    Thank you:)

  • EtherealScribe

    Thank you for the article. I’m reaching out to TinyBuddha for a way to feel better right now. I work the overnight at a house for people with developmental disabilities and I’m also a full time student. Between classes and work, I’ve just been really exhausted and my body has been aching. I started sleeping for a good chunk of time at work. Without realizing it, I let laundry slide and a few nights I neglected to change a woman that I support because I was sleeping. In the morning, I couldn’t finish the shower routine and get her dressed because I was physically exhausted. I didn’t even think of it as neglectful until my boss confronted me. I’ve decided to move on to another job; one less complicated. I just don’t know how I’m going to forgive myself for what I did to that woman. I’m not usual that type of person. At least, I don’t think so. It hurts so much right now, all I can do is cry.

  • lovelife

    But if the other person has also hurt you then you shouldn’t feel bad

  • kari

    Thank you, much needed

  • patricia

    I am reading this while in tremendous pain from a mistake I made yesterday. I am a dog groomer and a dog who was under my care raced out a door as I opened it. The dog was immediately hit by a car, and killed. I can not stop crying and reeling. I love dogs more that I can describe. I take care of so many dogs – I don’t understand how I could have done something so stupid. My heart is so broken and I want so desperately to take away the pain that I caused the dogs owner.

  • Eli Overbey


    Great article. It is astounding how much guilt can ruin a person – emotionally, spiritually, and physical. We created a “forgiveness” wall.. We have had a great reaction and pouring out of people that want to get things off of their chest. If you’d like to check it out:

  • Carlene Vitale

    I hope you’re feeling better now and have forgiven you for this.

  • Faye Green

    what if it is your own flesh and blood living under the same roof

  • anonymous

    The word everyone is looking for is ‘personify’. I forgive myself for being such a pedant.

  • anonymous

    What about apologising to people? Is it ever wrong to apologise to people? There’s someone I’d really like to apologise to, someone from years ago, but I feel like if I did so then I might just be stressing them out or bringing up old pain. Would it be selfish of me to apologise? To cut a long story short I was going through a nervous breakdown and at some point within that my boyfriend left me. I was the epitome of crazy ex: phoning, texting, emailing, accusing him of all sorts of bizarre things. And this continued on and off for 18 months! He was exceptionally patient with me at the time. I can have compassion for myself in that I can see that I was not in my right mind and now that I am recovered it will never happen again, but I’m still struggling not to feel angry with myself and I’m extremely embarrassed. Also, I feel like if I was to reach out after all these years and apologise – I also want to tell him how much I appreciate his patience and kindness with me when I was such a difficult person to be around – then it might just be for myself. I mean, I intend it for him too, but it would also make me feel better to apologise. I don’t want to just bother him, though. Would you apologise? I can’t make my mind up as to whether or not it is selfish!

  • Emma Craig

    Thank you for this post! My grandmother passed away on Christmas and I’m still struggling with guilt for having ignored her and gotten frustrated with her dementia. Will have to work on these steps!

  • kavin paker

    You have an entertaining way of writing and yes I love the why, I usually ask ” What are you hear to teach me
    Lubeck Altstadt

  • Sara Mortimer

    Hmm… You’re right – forgiving yourself is way harder than forgiving someone else; even if the transgressions are similar.

    About a year and a half ago, I went to NYC to meet a close friend of mine on a school trip. I’ve known him for about 5 years, and we had tried dating long-distance back within the first year of our friendship. Unfortunately, even though the relationship fell apart, I’d never gotten over the feelings I had for him. I tried waving them away and convincing myself I was “just friends” with him, but it just got worse and worse… They even persisted long after I began dating my current boyfriend. I would talk about this friend of mine to him with increasing frequency and somewhat alarming admiration. 🙁

    Everything came to a head the second evening I was in NYC. My friend and I’d had a bottle of red wine to share, and while we were talking, we got onto the subject of how we’d dated, how we’d never quite stopped being attracted to each other, etc. He was more than willing to let it go and move past it. After all, I was with someone else, and our lives had diverged a bit since then. Instead… I kissed him. Things were a little awkward after that…

    After my friend left to go back home, I met up with another friend of mine the next day. He used to live in my city and is a great mutual friend of mine and my boyfriend. After hanging out all day, and my second friend periodically asking if I was okay, I finally told him what’d happened over dinner that evening. I was so filled with guilt and horror and what I’d done, I couldn’t breathe. I was terrified of coming home, of having to tell my boyfriend what I’d done. But I came back, and as soon as I saw my boyfriend, I’d him I let him know what’d happened. After the initial shock had worn off, he eventually forgave me. The friend I was in love with eventually forgave me too, though that took a lot longer… I never meant to hurt anyone, and I didn’t kiss my friend with the intention of taking it anywhere further. Rather, all I’d wanted to do was show him how much I care about him. But I’d already messed up enough.

    My friend and I’ve since talked everything out. After a fight later that year, we agreed to just wipe the slate and start again. I’ve since moved in with my boyfriend, and we’re getting along swimmingly. Only thing is, I’ve never been able to forgive myself for what I did. Not just for the kiss in NYC, but for not acknowledging how I felt and putting an end to my feelings for my friend years before. I put my boyfriend and my friend through months and years of ridiculousness, and it came to a head because I wanted to go through with what *I* wanted… So, yeah. I’m going to start seeking out professional help to really get this out of my system, among other things.

  • Ayla

    I think it is good of you to apologise and it is the right thing to do. Then you can truly let go of that part of your life, and he will respect you for having grown so much stronger with the ability to admit what you did. Go for it

  • theSuppositoryofWisdom

    Thanks for posting this, your advice is valuable. Essentially been neglecting a subject in school to the point where it was just ridiculous, I disappointed the teacher and things still haven’t been resolved. Trying not to think about the idea of failing it, but also it’s really hard overcoming the guilt and shame. Not just from the fact that I essentially screwed the guy over for nearly the whole year with my lack of initiative and work, but he was one of the best and most genuine teachers I had and I took it for granted. I get how important someone’s work can be to them, my dad’s a teacher and it’s truly his vocation, I think I could say the same for my teacher but all I’ve delivered is a slap in the face. It doesn’t help when you shame yourself for being in this turmoil because you’re not even the injured party, but I guess when you hurt others you can harm yourself in a different way. All I’ve been telling myself lately is that I’m a horrible student and a deplorable human being. It’s a problem because right now I need to buckle down and do real work, that’s the only real way to apologise at this point, no words just work, as I have been told that my word can no longer be trusted – cuts deep but is justified. With only 10 weeks left I can’t do anything, I’m sorta frozen in this stupor of self-loathing. And my mind tells me nasty stuff like how I probably wouldn’t feel this much remorse if I hadn’t been spoken to about it by my teacher, face to face making it clear that my attitude was frustrating and pathetic. I’ve never damaged a relationship with a teacher to this extent before. keep tearing myself to pieces and it needs to stop so I can move on with year 12 and life and be at peace.

  • Lost

    Three years ago I hurt someone I love very badly. In the moment, it was deliberate on my part. I was in a lot of emotional pain, my life was falling apart and I took it out on someone I love with all of my heart. There are no words to even come close in describing just how devastating this turned out to be. I can never take it back, change it or even look this beautiful person in the eyes and ask for forgiveness. There is no closure for me in this. All I have are the memories of how I hurt her so badly, how I did not care in that moment and how life took a turn for the worse mere days later and took away any chance for me to ever make things right with her. I would give my own life if it could somehow make it all better. Some regrets we can live with, other regrets haunt us until the day we die. I cannot forgive myself. I pray that she forgives me someday but without her here for me to see it in her eyes and hear it in her voice .. I am lost in this pain. It is slowly destroying me.

  • Irene

    Hi, I’d like to gain more understanding regarding that quotes. Let’s say if i cheated, do i have the right to tell my partner that I’m not a cheater since my mistakes is not me? How about a person you’ve done wrong to start to behave bitterly and angry towards you even though you’ve apologized? Can we not say he’s a bitter person?

  • Harmony

    Were you able to heal after your ordeal?

  • GettingMyLifeBack&FindingME

    I am healing and when I look back to where I was to where I am now… I am very proud of myself for pushing through the pain and learning to forgive, others as well as myself. Though the later is still a struggle sometimes, but I am slowly getting there. It is kind of funny cause It is like everything I lost is being given back to me in bits and pieces a kinda funny way life is presenting me with similar situations I found myself in back then when I got myself into the mess I was in. And I am making way better decisions and being honest with myself. I was surprised when I took a deep breath and realized sometimes you do get do overs, just no ones that wipe out the mistakes of the past, but ones that make you examine your past mistakes and give you the chance to make the right choices and decisions. I find that I heal a little bit every day and I am thankful for all of it! The good the bad and the ugly! LOL!

  • harmony95

    First of all thank you for replying. Since the original forum was
    about a year ago, I doubted I would hear from you. Reading what you wrote, gives me a little hope that things will get better for me; I just need time and patience but most importantly learn from my mistakes.

    I have more questions for you, therefore i am sorry to bring up the hurtful past. You can reply privately ( or here, which ever you prefer.

    Your felony charge, were you able to get it expunged? Were you able to get a job? I am terrified about my career, although a lawyer is involved. I thought to seek some answers from someone who has already been there. Although, our situation is different the process of recovery is similar. Please don’t feel obligated to reply. I will understand if you don’t. Thank you & good luck.

  • beth

    Thanks for this…my boyfriend of 10 years died a month ago and we had a rocky relationship although we loved each other, I keep coming back to how I’m not even sure if he knew how much I loved him because of the way I acted…these thoughts and feelings are torture and there’s nothing I can ever do to make it up to him now. I’m searching for anybody to tell me something that could possibly make me feel better…but there really is no comfort cuz I can never make it right with him. If only I’d had one chance to talk to him again before he died. We were even fighting that day, our last words weren’t kind…and he died in a car accident that night…no more chances ever again!! I don’t want to live like this. I love and miss him so much

  • raghav

    Love this quote. I too was depressed for 2 years i was thinking that am i fundamentally bad person. But soon you realize that you are not your mistakes.*Life is itself vast…& its foolish of you to even rethink about your actions. Bacause if something good or bad was meant to happen so it happened. You should be happy & appriciate everything you have. & ya I agree with you.

  • lonely soul

    one time I have been hurting someone I love and care about. but every time I found myself hurting him. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I feel that I’m heartless, a real bitch and I want to change, I want to do something to change who I am but I don’t even know where to start. all i have in my heart is pain and all i feel is pain. i feel empty like I don’t have any kindness and I’m still young so what to do? and I have made a lot of mistakes, so many of them and they are still hunting me, and I have no one to talk to because no one understand so what to do?

  • Lauren

    Hmmmm. But sometimes you are a bad person. Sometimes you need to be fully ashamed so that you can learn what not to do next time. I don’t always think we should be forgiving ourselves until we have done some serious learning, thinking and feeling what someone else may have gone through because of our actions. And change them.

  • FeelingGuilty

    I am about to hurt someone, I know it’s wrong but I feel like I can’t do anything about it, because by not doing this, I may be miserable myself. It’s all my fault, my indecision that has led me to this situation..but I don’t think I’m brave enough to face the consequences.

  • Sapphire51

    My poor mom had the misfortune to have me as her caregiver. I left go of her hand after surgery and she fell breaking her hip. Later, I hired an lpn that was not someone I should have kept but I did. Not only that I knew what a terrible driver she was and I let her take my mom in our wheelchair van. She didn’t strap her in properly and my mom was thrown to the floor breaking both her legs and hit her heart which changed her life for the worse. They didn’t know for two days she broke her legs. She looked at me pleading but not talking, her hands shaking. I thought she was in shock but she was in pain being moved all over like she was for days can you imagine? If that’s not bad enough my mom had a small tumor in her colon and because I was afraid to have the surgery to remove a tumor that caused her to lose a lot of blood it’s now to late. She has suffered a lot because I didn’t take the tumor out when I could have but I was afraid she wouldn’t make it. I didn’t think that of course she would want to stop the bleeding. These are only a few of the dumb things i’ve done. I am responsible for killing my own mother with my fears and stupidity.Now, how does one forgive themselves for this? You can’t. I let my own sweet elderly mother who needed me to help her down and I watch her suffer so much. I will never forgive myself because it is my fault. So many aren’t but I am.

  • Josh

    I was having a very hard time getting over something hurtful I said to an ex girlfriend. This article helped me to stop feeling ashamed and guilty. Thanks so much

  • kitkat

    Hi Lost – just noticed this post is from 7 months ago. I feel in a similar situation to you – I hurt a very very lovely person, not quite deliberately, but thoughtlessly and selfishly, and it was definitely avoidable. I didn’t really give a second thought to how much I was hurting them. Like you, my life was/is falling apart and I was in a lot of emotional pain. I am searching for ways to find closure and self-forgiveness, and I think it is definitely possible. Who decides whether you are forgiveable or not? It’s your own inner voices – I know it seems like it’s coming from some objective judgement as to whether you can be forgiven, and you constantly compare yourself to other people to assess whether what you did is worse or not as bad, etc… but the inner judgements/voices/opinions/standards are yours and yours alone, and in that lies your power because you can change them. Therapy would help you, I think. Good luck, hugs to you.

  • guyjones

    I am in a similar situation to yours. Not quite the same facts, of course. But, the general outlines of the situation are the same. I encourage you to talk about your feelings with family and friends who are closest to you, a sibling or best friend, perhaps. Even airing out your inner thoughts to someone else who is listening can be cathartic. In addition, that person may have some insights to share. And, given how much pain you seem to be in, I encourage you to consider seeking help from a therapist. A trained therapist or psychologist cannot wave a wand and magically make our problems disappear, but, they may be able to provide some much-needed perspective and counsel.

  • Mai Nakaharu

    Thank you for writing this. i was feelibg very terrible about something,and i googled and came accross this page. Very beautiful what you still do for Josh.

  • v ub

    Why am reading this article now is because of the situation I am in. I have cheated on the person I love the most.. yes, my intention was clearly not hurt him or because I love him less..but it happened and I confessed and we are not together anymore. It hurts like hell. But I am not sure if I really had to pay such a big price.. disappointed, hurt and shattered

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  • nat

    I’m sure anyone struggling to forgive themselves has already been considering all of this. Once considered and felt it is pointless to harbour it.

    Really the act of seeking forgiveness is the proof of you being a good person.

    “He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.” And nobody could.

  • Richard Harding

    I did something stupid, and it caused damage to someone’s property. It was something careless on my part. Of course, I never intended for this to happen, but if I was using my brain it wouldn’t have. I’ve tried to apologize to this person, but I can’t seem to get past it. I think part of it is guilt and part of it is embarrassment over my actions. My wife said just move on but it’s not that easy.

  • Sarah

    My perspective is a bit different in that I am feeling a huge amount of guilt and regret over putting my dog to sleep 6 weeks ago instead of trying emergency surgery for her, as she was bleeding internally despite already having other treatments which didn’t help much. The vets talked me out of surgery as they said she wasn’t likely to survive and I somehow agreed to this. I cant forgive myself. She was only 8 1/2 and it all happened so quick and out of no where. I feel it is the worst mistake of my life yet the professionals werent encouraging the surgery after we did several tests and they all came back bad. Im trying to read stuff on how to forgive myself but I just dont know how as I feel she deserved a chance to live happily for several more years. I didnt want her to be in any more pain but think it was a mistake. I never deliberately wanted to hurt her, she was my baby, my best friend and I only wanted to help her, but things unfolded the way they did and I somehow agreed to that awful choice. I’m very lost and feel like a horrible person as she was everything to me.

  • Her

    When I was a kid I hurt someone so bad and by that I mean phisycally I practically ruined their life I don’t remember the reason and I feel so guilty I don’t know how could I fix this or forgive my self but I know I regret it so much and I am so sorry

  • Dawn

    The fact that you feel you are a ” heartless bitch” tells me you are not. A heartless bitch wouldn’t care if he/she hurt people. Whatever you did was a mistake. You can learn from it and do your best not to make the same mistake again. This can make you a better person if you let it.

  • see jay

    I have hurt a lot of people in my life. Some of my friends and my siblings. Mostly I hurt them with really strong words. I am very argumentative sometimes, that’s why sometimes I talk crap. I feel like a batch 🙁

  • Jay jay

    I was so hurt that a guy I spent 10 months with and loved was chatting to other women and arranging to meet them . I logged into his Facebook and advised everyone of all his bad secrets I knew. This was two months ago and I still feel like such s bad person.

  • Tom

    I have just hurt someone whom I love and have a deep appreciation for through my impulsive foolishness, while desperately trying to do a beneficial thing.
    She will be going on a work trip to a middle-eastern country with some other people. Knowing about this idea shook me, and so I had nothing come to my mind other than sending her an abhorrent message telling her she’s out of her mind and asking rhetorical questions such as if she wanted her head to roll off on the ground.
    In the state of mind I was in, I didn’t consider the detrimental emotions that I would arouse on her, thus causing the distress she’s now in.

    I have apologized for my incompetence. But the pain still remains, and so does the guilt I feel.

    An incompetent cretin is what I am.

  • Tom

    Same here. The situation could have been perfectly avoided and now she’s in pain.

  • Alexander

    A similiar thing happened to me. I say things in a way which can and does hurt people. The worst is knowing that someone is suffering because of you. It’s unbearable.

  • anonymous

    I hadn’t looked at my Disqus for a long time and found this…I’m surprised by my own comment, I was being unacceptably harsh on myself here. I was not in fact the epitome of crazy ex, I accused him out of anger once and that was about a day after we split up (then I apologised). But the 18 month contact was pursued by both of us (although I kept saying I didn’t want to be in contact because I wanted to get over it….I just didn’t stick to it…)…and in fact he continued to tell me he loved me during that time…so I’m really glad that I never did apologise. My behaviour during those 18 months was not to my standard, admittedly, but neither was it cruel or unfair. Had I been in his shoes I would not have thought badly of me at all.

    I think when you’re in a bad place it is shockingly easy to lay all blame at your own door. Just knowing that I beat myself up so badly two years ago that I would think any of that was true teaches me a few things about being a bit nicer to myself. Fucking hell…

  • Grandson

    Thank you so much for this post and all the people who have posted their heartfelt and most personal thoughts here. I feel, I can understand what many of you are going through.

    During a period of depression, I failed to control my anger and repeatedly hurt my grandmother who was in the last weeks of her life. As many have commented, it feels there is just no way to get over this type of guilt. To be honest, more than finding a relief for my guilt, I so wish my grandmother didn’t have to go through my bad behavior. She did not deserve to be hurt at all, not in the least by her grandson.

    After spending lot of time reading posts like this and thinking about it, I feel there is one solution. Moving on and trying to forgive myself looks too selfish. Living with this guilt, being kind and caring for others and try to never repeat the mistake again … might be the path forward. My current self cannot forgive me for what I have done. But few years down the line, after having lived a better life, being kind to others, maybe I can ask to forgive myself.

    Hope many of you here, find the strength to live with our guilt and pay the price (internal turmoil) for our actions and then ask for forgiveness ourselves.

  • Lphamz

    thank you for this article.

    I was looking for something like this and it nailed right on the head for me as I unintentionally hurt my partner in my sleep and he ended up being physically hurt. He’s recovering now but the guilt was simply eating me up inside and I honestly felt like how I feel about myself has changed and despite being fine on the outside, on the inside I was not forgiving myself.

    Your article gave me a different avenue of thinking and has lighted some weight off my chest.

    Thank you.

  • Leah

    From the other side of this I had a dog going on 4 years ago that we had only had about 5 or 6 weeks that had blastomycosis ( a nasty fungal lung thing) I did the opposite and tried treatment and we lost him in less than a week of trying to save him. I to this day second guess my decision to treat him, did I cause him more suffering? But thankfully the pain is not so bad anymore. I don’t think we can ever be certain of anything in these situations. You trusted the professionals and did what you thought was best in a very stressful situation. You will see your baby one day in the future on the other side of the rainbow bridge.

  • guest

    I feel similiar to you , but if we were bad people would we not feel any guilt for what we did? Perhaps it happens to make us better ? I feel guilt too , thing is I want to let go and enjoy my family as they don’t know what I’ve done and why inflict pain ob them for what I alone need to deal with.

  • Pissed of at this ignorance

    This is a excuse for jerks to keep hurting people they say they care about! F*#|& forgiving yourselves! Stop doing hurtful things to people you care about!Thats when life gets kinder !if we dont hold adults responsible for the damage that they cause to one another then expect the worst and no change in treatment amongst each other. P.s. how you hurt by what you did to hurt someone else¿ get the …… Out of here how do yall think those who have been hurt feel!



  • Pissed of at this ignorance

    People are the way they are for a reason! Bitter people most of the time have been betrayed by those they trusted and can no longer let the same thing happen because of the damage done to them. No one feels your pain like you so be considerate of others when you’ve done the damage to somone you want forgiveness from . You can’t feel there pain and if they dont forgive you… go mess up someone else life that DOn’t Know the Real You! Get your forgiveness from GOD

  • Ashley Nance

    Either way, you should still apologize. Years are nothing compared to sincere apology. Just because it will help you too doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do it.

  • Linda

    Dear Sapphire 51,
    I felt compelled to write because I was also caretaker for my Mother in her last years and know how very difficult it can be. Sometimes we make decisions based on knowledge we have at the time and it turns out to be a mistake but that is because we cannot predict the future and we are only HUMAN. If you were truly a bad person you wouldn’t have been her caretaker in the first place and you wouldn’t feel guilty about anything that happened either. You CARE because you are a good and loving person.

    I am sure you are focusing on the mistakes that were made instead of all the many good things you did for her and ways you were there when needed. Think of how you were a good and loving daughter your entire life, the good outweighs the bad, Please don’t focus on the last years which are usually hard and difficult for all involved. No one is perfect, it’s like being a parent, we make mistakes with our children too, do not hold yourself up to an unattainable and impossible standards. FORGIVE YOURSELF.

  • Lovelostforever

    I hurt my friend so bad because he always trash me and I felt upset , so I complain about it.
    My son and my family said that what I did was wrong, my heart is hurts and my shoulder is still heavy … I tried ,i cry all night for the forgiveness and he won’t anwer me, replay me anything back …. I prayed for him and I know there is not forgiveness from him and I need help and I hope that he is doing good and have a good life.

  • Red Hood

    I was out playing with my cousins the other day, and I took it too far and physically injured one of my cousins. not sure how badly it was, but unfortunately I did do it on purpose. After we stopped, he ran home crying, reasonably, and while I’m not in a huge amount of trouble,i the feel like my relationship with him is broken. And I feel terrible about what I did. I’m not a person who lets things get physical very often, and I don’t know why I did it this time. The other thing is that my Aunt is really pissed and she said she and my cousins wouldn’t be visiting anytime soon. I feel like I have ruined my moms relationship with her sister by doing this. I just feel awful about the whole thing. I’ve apologized many, many times now, and I will continue to do so, but I just don’t know what to do. The cousin doesn’t seem to be mad, but I don’t know.

  • Radiance

    Thank you. I am so ashamed and disgusted at myself, I didn’t open the door for our cat “because” I’ve been battling severe insomnia, and he didn’t come back early but around 3am. By ignoring him I was able to go back to sleep, but he never came back. The only reason I can think of for him to disappear is that something happened to him. He had always come back every night. I am so sorry, I do feel like a horrible selfish person, I need to find a way to get passed this, your article is very useful, thank you for opening up like that.

  • Fred

    If you slept with someone else (for example).. it is all your fault and you need to move on – you made a mistake of not understanding the person you were with and how they would feel – you just have to move on – a mistake like that I could not forgive because I am me too and certain things hurt too much – so stop thinking about how you feel cause that is what it sounds like to me – you whole mail is like this 🙁

  • mad dog grimes

    I have hurt a lot of my batchmates in my college by abusing them on our whatsapp group online but I have never personally said something to anyone just abused them online I didn’t do it on purpose Infact I was triggered I overdid that and hurt some of them very badly and that hurt me slowly without me even realizing it I don’t know what to do know I have had a history of sudden outbursts and antics against my mates whether in junior high high school and now in college I guess i overdid that because I was triggered and people were jealous of me most of the time I have had a very unique and weird life till now where most of everyone seems to dislike my very existence I don’t know how to improve my social skills with people and how to prevent them from hating me I guess I will be alone my whole life

  • Mou

    Recently I hurt the feelings of my best friend so bad which is beyond any repair. I am unable to forgive myself after that but I think after reading this I will be able to cope up with this situation soon. Thank you Michael Davidson for the advice…

  • ET

    I’m having a terrible time due to getting in a physical altercation with an in law. We’ve all been beyond stressed and overwhelmed and we both put our hands on each other.
    I couldn’t believe what had happened after the fact. But, in the middle of it all I barely remember even thinking. It all happened so fast. I’m still replaying it in my head and how I could’ve avoided it. My daughter saw it all unfold which makes me feel absolutely horrible.
    Now I have to stay strong until we have go to court. I’m hoping for the best and truly trying to forgive myself and make sure it NEVER happens again.

  • mr.hopeful

    i messed up a few weeks ago. I told the truth because the guilt of lying and even though it was just head i feel and felt guilty, i may lose her over something i should of never done i felt then need to be honest to give her the choice of wanted to stay in this relationship or not. how do i forgive myself im ashamed, embarrassed, fear that i wont be able to show her im not that man but forgiving myself i just cant seem to do even if she does the thought of hurting her replays in my mind that im no good, that i can never be a good man, that my life is over just knowing she has to live with that, that im the reason she cries and wont trust men, im the reason that i lost my family and ill never get that back. how do you heal yourself?

  • •°~Çät Gîrl~°•

    Last night I made this friend in the app Candid and she was the same age as I. I thought we could be really good friends and we did become close! Slowly I found out she was lonely and depressed. One side of me wanted to help her but the other side was afraid and wanted to bail. I couldn’t decide what to do so I thought maybe I can help her so I talked to her all night and morning. In the afternoon next day she said hello to me and we talked normally. I got even more scared when she wanted to rely on me and share her secrets and trust me. I was afraid of something…. I don’t know what. I really wanted to help her so I said really pleasant things to her and she trusted me even more resulting me getting even more scared. I finally gave up. I couldn’t do this and bailed from this. Maybe I was afraid of the responsibility… I don’t know. I told her lies to get away. Awful lies but I wasn’t rude to her. I told her that my life was in danger and I couldn’t live longer. She believed me. She believed my lies… I feel horrible for what I’ve done! I hate myself… I was her only friend and look what I did! I can never forgive myself for what I’ve done NEVER! Why was I such a coward?! I could have saved her from sadness but no I didn’t! I don’t know why how and what happened…. but I can never ever forgive myself for what I’ve done. I broke someone’s trust and maybe even made her cry! I don’t know what to do anymore.

  • kaynine

    I broke up with my ex of 6 year. We had problems for about 3 years where I couldnt find it in myself to commit to the relationship. This caused me to try and push her away, as I was too much of a coward to break up with her myself.
    I did a lot of things to try and push her away, many of them she still remembers and has told me about. I feel awful all the time and Im really struggling to forgive myself for my actions.

  • ladylove79

    I am responding to you because you just posted a few hours ago so I know that what you are feeling is fresh, like me.

    In my case, I spoke harshly to someone in my family about something that they really didn’t do because I was annoyed with them about something they did do and that I let build up inside.

    I hope that we can both forgive ourselves AND learn better ways to express how we are feeling in a timely fashion so that we do not end up harming people because we cannot articulate our emotions correctly and then follow it up with good behavior. I think that is what we both did.

    Cheers to you and I, kaynine, two people who are trying to not hate ourselves for the mistakes that we make.

  • Von Christen

    My girlfriend died in cancer 2015, I began to mourn her the day she told me she would not survive her sickness. I still mourn her, but I’ve also learned to celebrate her legacy that lives on in my memory of her, making her an anchor that only brings me pain would defile her legacy and that would be unfair, I must also think back to the good times we had and smile. When she was alive she made me happier than I’ve ever been, it brings me just as much joy to remember her as it brings pain to mourn her.

    However, I have not been able to forgive myself for how I hurt her so close to her final days. Mourning her while she still lived eventuelly broke me, I grew so emotionally weak so in the end I couldn’t handle the pain anymore. I started to put a distance between me and her wich lead her to believe that I had stopped loving her, that I was mad at her. She died believing that my love for her had gone cold, I don’t blame her, I ignored her and avoided her. A crime I regret more than anything, a wrong I will never be able to put right.

    For a time I hated myself for my own weakness, my inner voice yelled acussations at me, reminding me how I betrayed and abadonned her. I felt deserving of the pain and the shame, I felt like scum.

    I do not hate myself anymore, the conversations with my inner entity has grown calm, and I have come to terms with my actions. I still feel an intense pain and shame for what I did, I do not the pain for it is the closest thing to penitience I shall get, I can’t forgive myself, nor do I wish to. I still demand to suffer, to feel my sins crawling on my back, I use the pain to fuel my determination to never again let something like this happen again, to never be so weak ever again.

    My greatest wish is for a chance to tell her one last time why, and how much I love her.
    But that is beyond my reach, so I will try to live in a way that honors her memory, that will have to do.

  • sad

    I can’t seem to forgive myself… I hurt my best friend… It was not intentional. I keep forgetting things. I forgot to tell my friend something really important… But now my friend thinks that I did so because I do not trust my best friend… Whom I am very much attached to… Can’t forgive myself for making someone real close to me like that.. I’m hurting so badly and in turn hurting my mother too.. i don’t know why I am like this

  • Mariam Abdoulrezzak

    Thank you for this.

  • Linda de Jong

    Yup. Sometimes hurtful actions have repurcussions for years, putting the other person down a dark path. Happened to me

  • sleepless

    Forgiving myself has been the most difficult thing I have faced in my life. I was with my girlfriend for 3 years and I was untrue to her. I was completely emotionally unaware and impulsive about the things i did. I was also drinking alot and in hindsight was somewhat of an alcoholic. But that’s no excuse , it just contributed to my feelings being numb.She found out that i was unfaithful, and our relationship fall apart and she left me.

    It’s been 1 year since she left i came crashing down to reality. The guilt , regret and sense of loss is overwhelming every single day. I haven’t slept for months. The feelings i have are just like a broken record in my mind. I can’t stop thinking about her.

    The result of this turmoil has changed me completely. I am fully in touch with my emotions and everything is so clear to me now. I never realized how much i loved her and cared about her while we were together. She was the best thing to have ever happened to me. I can’t believe that i had hurt such a kind ,caring and loving woman and then lost her.

    There’s nothing in the world that I wouldn’t give for another chance with her and to make things right. I have wrote her 2 letters in the last year in which i apologized as much as i could, after i send the second one, she txted me and told me it made her mad, to leave her alone and to get on with my life. I have taken this really hard. I never knew I could ever end up feeling like this. The regret is so overwhelming that it’s efftecting me while at work and can’t concentrate on anything. I have tried going the the gym everyday for months for some relief but it was short-lived. I’m reading self-help books and doing meditation and yoga in hopes to achieve some peace of mind but i feel like this is going to take a long time…I don’t know how one can simply just forgive themselves for hurting somebody they loved and still do love.

  • Jamal Hussain

    But how can we forgive ourselves?

  • Jayp75

    Not being able to forgive yourself is a very real problem. Excessive shame and guilt about hurting a person is heart breaking. I personally acted the idiot when someone broke up me after a short relationship…..3 months….insecurity and mistrust caused me to not address things that upset me…i was very immature and didn’t treat her well. I sent obsessively long stupid texts to her. Basically i was a bunny boiler.
    I’ve read excessive shame and apologising is the inner child asking to be forgiven…especially when it comes to rejection. This is not an excuse…’s an explanation so i can understand it and move on.
    They’re are 3 reasons we want forgiveness. 1. Our own reputation
    2. We care about the other person
    3. We want that person back in our lives.
    I don’t think we can dismiss or say it’s terrible that we feel 1 and 3. It may be natural. If however.. we can let the other person go…. so we don’t need them anymore. ..3 is solved. If I vow to never behave like that again….1 will eventually come right. For 2…..if you are deeply sorry for hurting them, apologise and then leave them be…..even if they don’t accept it….and wish them well in everything they do in your heart and think/pray that they forgive… so that it doesn’t cause a stain on their heart….for their future…not for our benefit…then we can forgive ourselves. Beating ourselves up is an avoidance….i think. Forgive yourself and accept that they are strong enough to deal with the pain….and hope they have a wonderful life…and they don’t carry the pain with them. That’s what I’m trying. Any opinions?

  • Nevermore

    Hello Jayp75, i read your comment and you described the problem i had 5 months ago, i don’t know when did it happened to you but now after 2 months i hope you are going through it just fine.

    I became so dependent of my partner, posesive and too attached, forgot about my life and i was living 24/7 just for her, this made me not give her her own personal space, i also felt like i was living on a cage on the third month and was feeling so insecure, she played an innocent joke on me and i acted like an idiot which hurt her a lot, i asked for forgiveness and after she put some thought on it she told me that we would be better off as friends… Man that hurt so bad, i tried to manipulate her for her to stay in the relationship, hurting her feelings once again, after bothering her with long messages she lost ALL the interest in me, i just thanked her for the time she spent with me, told her to take care and said goodbye… All i got as a reply was an “Okay, you too” and i stopped bothering her since then.

    The first 3 months were hell, i was blaming myself non stop but now i have improved, i started practicing affirmations and self love and it really helps a lot, when you love someone is easier to forgive them which means if you love yourself a lot you will find easier to do so, grab all the nice things from the past romantic relationship, were they good or bad, short or long and learn from the mistakes made there so you don’t make the same mistakes again, have a beautiful month!

  • Simpson28383

    I have unresolved problems from my past that keep me awake even 20 years later. People i failed. Or hurt with words. And never got the chance to make right. Or never had the courage to make right. Out of the blue it can just make me so upset and can’t stop thinking about it. I could forgive myself. But what is upsetting me is knowing the other person is hurting over these past incidents as there was no resolve or closure and its my fault.

    I just want to right the wrongs I’ve done. Not for my sake but theirs. But its no longer possible. So i have to live with this feeling that i hurt people. And it keeps me awake knowing i caused pain to someone else who i actually liked. Words that i didn’t mean. But done damage that has destroyed my relationship with these people. Its the unresolved nature of these chapters in my life that upset me the most. Not the actual moment they happened. The sadness comes from a deep desire to make things right with the person and not being able to.

    These people probably think i am a awful person. I wish i could let them into my mind to see how sorry i am.

    I read or heard from someone that any emotions that have a severe impact on yourself, do not come from God but the devil. And we are to reject these feelings as they are a lie. If you believe in God. Know that he does not want you to tear yourself apart with feelings of shame or guilt. This is not meant to be a part of the journey of your life. If you can’t make peace with someone. Move on with your life and vow to try to learn from the mistakes you’ve made and not repeat them. Do not beat yourself up over it. This does no good. For you or anyone else. Its like worry. God says do not worry about the past or the future. These are tactics used by the devil to cause distress in us. Same with guilt or sadness you cannot let go of. Let it go. God wants you to be happy. At all times. He loves you, let that bring you the peace to move on.

  • 30th Century Girl

    I hope you find peace. She was probably smart enough to know that you did love her even if you did a bad thing. She’s not here to forgive you but if she were, don’t you think she would? She probably knew that there was more to you than the bad thing you did.

  • 30th Century Girl

    Family is a bit different. If it’s your kid then you do have an obligation to try and help them understand. If they still live with you then there’s a good chance they love you the best they can given their level of emotional immaturity. Children change as they get older to understand their parents are only human. I was about 27 by the time I learned this.

  • 30th Century Girl

    People can be bitter about something that happened without being a bitter person. Just like someone can do a bad thing without being a bad person.

    You can cheat and even say you’re not a cheatER if it’s not part of your normal behavior but you still have to tell your partner or you would be telling a lie about maintaining monogamy.

  • 30th Century Girl

    It’s not okay to mess up people’s lives and then say some god forgave you. Gods aren’t the ones who you hurt, other people are.

  • 30th Century Girl

    Well nobody owes you forgiveness if you hurt them. You have to accept that. At the same time if someone is putting you down constantly, that is unhealthy for both parties. And ultimately they probably don’t respect you. Respect is required for a healthy relationship.

  • 30th Century Girl

    You can be fully ashamed and then forgive yourself later after time has passed and things have changed. It’s not an either or situation. The article touches on that.

  • 30th Century Girl

    Like you, I came here over grief about a pet.
    I fostered a cat who was the light of my life. He meant so much to me but in my inexperience and childishness, I lashed out at him one time and chased him for doing something I didn’t want him to do. I made sure he was scared in that moment. Afterwards we resumed our normal happy cat & caregiver relationship and he died several months later. I still can’t get over what I did though. I feel so guilty. I hope he didn’t hold on to that breach of trust after that day. I hope he died knowing I loved him.

  • Sad

    I hurt someone I care about yesterday. She called me selfish and an asshole and I’m having a hard time forgiving myself because I feel like she’s right. I never meant harm. About 7 months ago, we met. I liked her. She has an 8 year old daughter. I don’t have any kids and have always wanted them. She told me up front that she wants no more kids and that her daughter and her would have to be enough. I said that was fine, as I wanted to get to know her better and and I thought I really was fine with it. As time went on, I met her daughter twice, and she said her daughter was “talking about me all the time”, and excited that she might have a new father. She is a great little girl. The mom and I developed some issues, argued and broke up a few times, but decided to work on it again a week ago. Over time in the back of my mind, I realized I do really want to have a kid one day, and while I could love the two of them, I would still want more. I mentioned it to her yesterday. This set her off, she called me and right in front of her daughter, told me off, called me an asshole, a user, and a time waster. Her daughter was crying. The thing she wants most in the world is a father. She told me to delete her number and never call her again. She said I’ll be 50 and alone and regret this forever (38 now). I felt and still feel like the biggest douche bag. How can I forgive myself?

  • Mary Ennis

    I hurt someone I loved more than life, my son. I was not there for him when he needed me. I suffer from depression and some mental illness. I apologized over and over in every way I knew how. I begged for forgiveness, now he has passed away and it is all too late. I don’t know how to move forward. I want to forgive myself because I did what I thought was best at the time and begged for forgiveness, but he just would not forgive me.

  • Ashamed

    I think about a year ago when my younger brother n I shared a bedroom as well as my sister I took his hand while he was sleeping and placed on my breast just out of curiosity to understand what it felt like and I ended up poking my boob with his hand n I stopped realizing it where wrong,so does this make me a child abuser (he was asleep by the way) and from there I never did it again so am l a bad person for doing so I really do regret that curiosity n I am really sorry I would never intentionally hurt my brother …I was twelve at the time n he was maybe 7

  • Ashamed

    Also I also feel bad bcoz I did the same thing to my sister I put the palm of her hand on top of my bosom just to understand the feeling (she was asleep ) although I never repeated any of these actions but I also did something similar when I was younger maybe eight n I was curious about breastfeeding and I once tired it on my sleeping baby cousin but my bosom (budding chest) only kissed his lips n I withdrew,the wierd thing is it did not seem wrong it’s like I was trying to understand something but when I got older I understood it was wrong…n I noe it sounds a lot but the last thing I did was my brother’s incident so how do forgive myself for these past mistakes n if u could tell me if this was abuse or curiosity

  • Ashamed

    I really am sorry if I sound like a really bad person to you guys but I am really sorry about those things n I regret their occurrences plz help

  • Dan

    I have harmed very very good friend like a brother without I know or notice my actions are harming him real bad, I have apologized and he forgave me but I can’t forgive myself I feel pain every moment I think about this and every moment I see he did nothing wrong to me and thats feel descent pain and still can’t forgive myself I don’t know what to do really to stop that pain, I can’t eat or to live my life only thing I feel is pain and am off from everything even I can’t enjoy any happy moment