Pacing Yourself When You Want the Pain to Stop

Pace Yourself

“The intensity of the pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment.” ~Eckhart Tolle

I was in pain.

My legs hurt, I felt nauseated, my heart thumped hard and fast, and I labored for every breath.

I was halfway up a steep, three-mile hill, and I was so exhausted I could barely keep my bike upright.

My mind tried desperately to solve this problem: “Should I stop? I should stop. No! I’ve done this hill in the past without stopping—what’s the problem this time? I hate this! Why is this so painful?”

I glanced over at my riding buddy, Keila. She was pedaling slowly and methodically. I couldn’t hear her breathing at all. Of course, it was hard to hear over my loud gasps.

I uttered an expletive.

I kept going. The road stayed the same, but I suffered more and more.

After twenty more minutes of cardiovascular hell, we reached the top of the hill.

I unclipped from my pedals and stood over my bike, elbows on the handlebar, head hanging as I tried to regain my breath.

In the middle of a wheeze I looked over at Keila. She was standing over her bike, too. But she was on her phone texting someone. No sign of struggle there.

After a few minutes, I was able to stand upright and Keila was done texting. We had climbed this hill together many times. Today had been a bad, bad day for me.

Still panting, I said to Keila, “That was awful. I wonder why it was so hard this time?”

A wise and observant young woman, Keila softly replied, “It’s because when you start to suffer, you speed up. And then you get mad.”

I looked at her for a moment and then, despite my still thudding heart, I laughed.

She was right.

An experienced cyclist, Keila acted as my coach when I first started riding. One of the things she always had a hard time getting me to understand was how to pace myself, especially going uphill.

I had actually become fairly good at it, but today I had forgotten the lesson. Today, when I came to a very steep section of the challenging hill, I tried to speed up to make the pain stop.

But then I didn’t have enough energy for the rest of the climb and really struggled.

Out of fuel and suffering, I got angry and swore at the pain and myself.

After I recovered from the ride, I started thinking about what Keila said:

When you start to suffer, you speed up. And then you get mad.”

I began to wonder if this manifested itself in my life off the bike, too.

It didn’t take long to see the pattern.

  • Averse to being in conflict with anyone, I often sped up during disagreements, either acquiescing to the other person or abruptly cutting them out of my life.
  • Times of confusion or indecision also caused me to speed up such that I would make impulsive choices just so I wouldn’t have to suffer any longer with being unsettled.
  • At the beginning of a long period of deep and heavy grief, I quickly latched onto someone I thought would help me get past the pain only to have that person bring me more heartache and sadness.
  • And, during some of these times of indecision, confusion, conflict, or sadness, I used anger as a motivator to propel me into action, but again, usually in a rash, compulsive manner.

Inevitably, these “speed up maneuvers” backfired on me. I ended up regretting choices I made, cut off people I would have enjoyed keeping in my life, and lost myself in the process of getting the pain to stop.

But I also noticed that as I’ve aged and become more conscious of my speed up maneuvers, I’ve learned to pace myself more. To move more slowly and with greater awareness of my actions and their outcomes.

And I’ve learned that pacing myself doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt.

When I’m on my bike and climbing a hill, I still get to a point that I’m suffering no matter what I do.

But when I pace myself rather than try to outrace the pain, I have confidence that I can both tolerate the suffering and make it to the top of the hill.

So now, when I pace myself during life’s struggles, I don’t hold on to illusions that it’s not going to hurt in some way.

I have confidence in the knowledge that slowing down and moving forward with awareness will allow me to manage the suffering so that I can make it to the top of whatever emotional hill lies in front of me.

I encourage you to identify your speed up maneuvers.

What do you do when you’re suffering?

What are the ways you try to get the pain to stop that only drain your energy and cause you to struggle even more?

How can you pace yourself so that, even though moving forward may still hurt, you can make it to the top of the hill?

On our next ride, I told Keila about my insights that sprang from her quiet observation of my cycling struggles.

She laughed gently and said, “Everything that happens on the bike relates to what happens off the bike, Bobbi.”

Amen to that, Keila.

Amen to that.

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About Bobbi Emel

Psychotherapist Bobbi Emel specializes in helping people face life’s significant challenges and regain their resiliency. Download her free ebook, “Bounce Back! 5 keys to survive and thrive through life’s ups and downs.” You can find her blog at and follow her on Facebook ( and Twitter (@BobbiEmel.).

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  • Akash Bothra

    Somehow I can relate to what you are saying. I am a patient of muscular dystrophy and on a wheel chair, and most of the time when I fail to do something that normal people do very easily, I become impatient and try to do that with more power and aggression and fail again. Its the anger of failure that works behind my impatient. But after reading your article I am getting some ways to manage my anger and impatient. Thanks a lot…!! 🙂

  • I can relate to this A LOT. I tend to be a very anxious person, and for much of my life, I’ve used food (or more accurately — the lack of it –) to avoid that anxiety. For a long time, my main goal each day has been to avoid anxiety AT ALL COSTS. Unfortunately, my methods for doing so negatively impact my physical, mental, and emotional health.

    (I only recognized this unfortunate pattern yesterday, so it’s funny that this very article showed up today.) Anyway, I now realize that the only way to overcome the pain of anxiety is to go THROUGH it. Because no matter how slick I think I’m being when I do all these little things to make it go away, it’s always right there waiting for me later on. So now, instead of my main goal being to AVOID pain (in my case, anxiety), my main goal is to slow down, take a deep breath, and forge ahead. Like you said, “I have confidence that I can both tolerate the suffering and make it to the top of the hill.”

    Back on the bike I go 🙂

  • Ushma

    What Wonderfully written article!
    I can conpletely relate to this. I have anxiety and i always jump to the worst conclusions….Like, all of my friends are gonna leave me…or maybe someone close is trying to hurt me. I, too, have abrutly cut off way too many people from my life when i could have kept at least a few.

    For the past few months, my cousins that im really close to have been ignoring me. Even when i text them, they’ll only reply brusquely and i thought that maybe cutting them off would help. What i dont try to take into consideration is “why” they must be ignoring me. I must ask them, right?
    Instead of jumping to the end of our relationship, i must pace myself and talk it out. Right?

  • Maritza Diaz

    This is truly amazing. I have shared this post in my latest post on my site. Thanks for the inspiration.

  • You’re welcome, Akash! I think if we can just move slowly but purposefully when we’re in pain and suffering, we often can get a lot further than when we try to muscle our way through.

  • That’s great! Thanks so much for sharing your story. It’s true that most often there is no way around but through. Good luck to you!

  • Thanks, Maritza!

  • Yep, you’ve got it, Ushma! Pace yourself and see what happens!

  • I love this Article Bobbi. Thanksyou. Sitting with emotional pain has been my life’s biggest challenge. My escape was to use food, drugs, alcohol…anything. T thought it wasn’t ok to feel how I was feeling. Id been alone with this sadness since a very young age, so I didnt even know what it was that I was feeling, or that it was ok to feel it. By coming clean and sharing what was going on for me emotionally with my friends has been so liberating. I always felt so alone with my pain….but thats because I never communicated with anyone how I was feeling. Opening up, being honest and vulnerable with the right people has been my liberation. I love this message about pacing yourself through your pain. Especially useful when the pain experienced has been a chronic condition. Many thanks.

  • This has come at just the right time for me, really resonated!

  • Ushma

    I spoke to them and they assured me that nothing was wrong. I feel so good. Thank you 🙂