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  • in reply to: Inspirational words #444616
    anita
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    Dear Peter:

    I greatly appreciate your honesty about how my wording came across to you. I will process and get back to you tomorrow. And I will correct what I may have misunderstood.

    Oh. And the song- I didn’t write it. It’s a song by Glen Cambell. I love watching the YouTube of him singing it with karoke captions, so I can sing along.

    Anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444612
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    Yesterday, when I was young
    The taste of life was sweet like rain upon my tongue
    I teased at life as if it were a foolish game
    The way an evening breeze would tease a candle flame

    The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned
    I always built to last on weak and shifting sand
    I lived by night and shunned, the naked light of day
    And only now, I see how the years have run away

    Yesterday, when I was young
    There were so many songs that waited to be sung
    So many wild pleasures that lay in store for me
    And so much pain my dazzled eyes refused to see

    I ran so fast that time, and youth at last ran out
    And I never stopped to think what life was all about
    And every conversation that I can recall
    Concerned itself with me, and nothing else at all

    Yesterday, the moon was blue
    And every crazy day brought something new to do
    And I used my magic age as if it were a wand
    I never saw the waste and emptiness beyond

    The game of love I played with arrogance and pride
    And every flame I lit, so quickly, quickly died
    The friends I made all seemed somehow to drift away
    And only I am left on stage to end the play

    Yesterday, when I was young
    There were so many songs that waited to be sung
    So many wild pleasures that lay in store for me
    And so much pain my dazzled eyes refused to see

    There are so many songs in me that won’t be sung
    ‘Cause I feel the bitter taste of tears upon my tongue
    And the time has come for me to pay for yesterday
    When I was young

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444611
    anita
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    Is it that I was stuck analyzing shame and fear in efforts to chase them away via understanding that kept them hanging on tight, while trying to understand them with an attitude of befriending them would have made all the difference? In other words, it’s not the analysis itself that kept them strong within me, but my efforts to divorce myself from them through analysis that kept them powerful within me?

    I think so.

    And strangely, as I am now thinking of befriending fear and shame, I have no desire to analyze them further.

    anita

    in reply to: Feeling Stuck #444610
    anita
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    Dear Mollie:

    Your reflections here show such a profound self-awareness. You’re recognizing your emotional patterns, your relationship needs, and the way you want to engage with uncertainty—not from impulse, but with mindfulness. That’s a huge sign of growth.

    Your words about the relationship reveal a thoughtful approach to connection—one that values honesty and mutual understanding rather than rushing forward without clarity. It’s admirable that you can acknowledge both the depth of your feelings and the importance of measured decision-making. The fact that you want to engage with him in a way that doesn’t fixate on a predetermined outcome but instead prioritizes getting to know each other in real time speaks volumes about your emotional growth.

    I also love how you’re reframing your emotional journey—not seeing off days as setbacks, but as part of the ebb and flow of life. Even the most emotionally thriving individuals experience stress, boredom, sadness, and fear. The key is learning not to measure emotional success by an absence of struggle, but by how we navigate those struggles with self-compassion. And you’re doing just that.

    It’s heartwarming to read about your appreciation for tiny buddha and our connection. Your thoughtfulness and openness make you a deeply engaging person to converse with. I’m grateful that you’ve shared this journey with me!

    anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444609
    anita
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    Concluding:

    I will revisit all this later, of course. But for now, as with all things in life, balance is key—stillness and movement, analysis and non-analysis. Just as excess motion leads to chaos and excess stillness to stagnation, too much analysis traps the mind, while too little leaves needed insight undiscovered. All things in moderation.

    As to me, all my decades-long analyses of my childhood was fruitless until most recently, and the reason was simply that I perceived the analyzer (myself) as worthless, acutely worthless and shameful. Shame has been the most acute. And the fear too, the fear of the next time I will be shamed. No way in heaven or in hell, that I could have transcended these acute painful emotions+ cognitions without facing this Shame and Fear. I am looking these in the eye right now, so to speak. Strangely, befriending them. Not for the purpose of keeping them, but for the purpose of not trying to escape them, a quest I was never successful at. Wow.. befriending all that I am. All. What a concept.

    Developing this a bit further: the more I tried to escape shame and fear, the stronger and more persistent they remained. Accept them, befriend them, and I can almost feel their lack of motivation to stay.

    anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444608
    anita
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    Continued:

    Carl Jung, a Swiss psychiatrist and psychologist who founded analytical psychology, was not a philosopher in the traditional sense. His approach differed from spiritual traditions that advocate immediate transcendence. He emphasized integration—meaning that emotions, trauma, and unconscious patterns must be acknowledged and processed before true transformation occurs. He believed suppressing or bypassing emotional experiences could lead to psychological fragmentation.

    Jung’s concept of individuation is the process of confronting and integrating all aspects of the psyche—including emotions, fears, and unconscious drives—so that a person becomes whole rather than avoiding or prematurely “transcending” emotional challenges.

    He believed that every person has a “true self” beneath layers of conditioning, societal expectations, and unresolved inner conflicts. The process of individuation is about integrating different aspects of the psyche—shadow, ego, and unconscious elements—so that a person becomes whole rather than fragmented. Transcendence, in this sense, isn’t about escaping the self but fully embracing one’s deepest truth without being bound by social, cultural, or psychological limitations.

    He argued that people often live according to false identities shaped by external influences (culture, family, trauma). Transcendence involves breaking free from these limiting beliefs—realizing that one’s identity isn’t defined by past wounds, societal roles, or inherited fears.

    A quote by Adyashanti, an American spiritual teacher and author known for his teachings on awakening, non-duality, and self-realization: “A total acceptance of yourself brings about a total transcendence of yourself.”- this means that true transcendence—rising beyond ego, suffering, and limitations—doesn’t come from rejecting or changing yourself, but from completely accepting one’s own flaws, emotions, and experiences. It’s a paradox: accepting yourself completely is what allows a person to move beyond the self.

    If I fully embrace my emotions without resistance, I can stop being defined by my suffering, allowing transcendence into peace. In essence, acceptance clears the path for transcendence, while rejection creates internal barriers.
    I wonder if your transcendence, Peter, is involved with fully embracing your emotions with no resistance?

    * Just as I was about to submit this post, I found out that you submitted a new post in which you reflected on your previous two posts, realizing that you focused too much on methods as paths to understanding when, in reality, the Taoist perspective suggests a pathless path—a way of being rather than a structured approach.

    You acknowledge that despite changing the order of his practices—meditation, contemplation, prayer, dance, art— you were still engaging in method-based healing, rather than allowing life to unfold naturally. You contrast two approaches:

    (1) Intuitive Flow: Moving through life without fixating on resolving past trauma—instead, engaging in presence through movement and stillness.

    (2) Analysis Trap: Letting trauma take attention first, trying to understand it mentally, and then working toward balance—something you liken to overeating chips despite knowing it’ll make you sick (an excess of intellectual analysis without real resolution).
    Your short meditation quote seems to summarize this revelation: Movement creates life, Stillness Love → Action and presence coexist; life unfolds naturally when both are embraced.

    You suggest that this realization shifted how you engage with past memories—seeing them as just past, rather than something that needs direct fixing. You clarify that you are not promoting your experience as a universal solution, but simply sharing your perspective.
    You acknowledge that you still fall into analysis, then remember, then forgets again—implying transcendence isn’t a permanent state but an ongoing shift between presence and intellectual processing. (to be continued)

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444606
    anita
    Participant

    * I think that my post was too long, so i will break it down to parts:

    Dear Peter:

    First, a few definitions:

    Transcendence- In a spiritual or philosophical sense, transcendence refers to an awareness that goes beyond everyday perception—seeing things from a higher perspective, detached from ego or suffering. It involves a sense of oneness, peace, or enlightenment, where things like fear, desire, and emotional pain no longer control one’s experience.

    Detachment- A calm and objective perspective, where one is not overly affected by external events or inner turmoil. In a spiritual or philosophical sense, detachment means letting go of attachment to desires, suffering, or ego-driven identification. It’s seen as a way to achieve peace, allowing emotions to arise without being consumed by them.

    Ego- In spiritual and philosophical traditions, ego is seen as an illusion—the part of us that clings to identity, comparison, and separateness rather than a deeper sense of oneness and flow. Some teachings suggest that transcending the ego leads to peace, allowing someone to move beyond attachments and emotional reactivity.
    Put simply: ego is the voice that says, “This is who I am. I need to protect, prove, or control this image.”. Detachment says: “I am not defined by my thoughts, emotions, or external circumstances. I can observe without being controlled by them.”. Transcendence says: “There is no separate ‘me’ to protect or prove—everything is interconnected. Love, awareness, and peace exist beyond the need for labels or control.”

    * Control in the above refers to the ways the ego tries to shape, manage, or dictate reality to maintain a sense of identity or security. Examples: (1) If someone disagrees with one’s beliefs, the ego feels threatened and pushes back aggressively to prove it’s right. Transcendence would say, “I don’t need to convince others—truth exists beyond personal opinions.

    (2) The ego resists sadness or anger, thinking, “I shouldn’t feel this way.” Transcendence would say, “All emotions flow naturally—I allow them without attachment.

    (3) The ego insists that life should unfold in a specific way (success, relationships, status), leading to anxiety if things don’t go as planned. Transcendence would say, “I trust in the flow of life rather than forcing results.”

    (4) The ego clings to labels (smart, strong, successful), fearing that losing them means losing self-worth. Transcendence would say, “I am beyond labels—my value doesn’t depend on external definitions.”

    Next, I am simplifying my questions and your answers and processing them best I can:

    Question # 1: Does detachment require acknowledgment and emotional integration first, or can transcendence happen immediately?

    Your answer: Transcendence can be immediate. A person can shift into a higher awareness immediately, without needing to process suffering first. Detachment does not require acknowledgment and emotional integration first. Transcendence can happen immediately when one stops identifying with suffering. Detachment is an awareness shift—not something to be worked toward, but something to be allowed. Suffering is real in the realm of maya (time and experience), so emotional acknowledgment might still play a role in some form.

    Question # 2: If trauma isn’t “real” in the ultimate sense, does suffering need full emotional acknowledgment before moving on?
    Your answer: Full emotional acknowledgment is a valid path to healing, but it hasn’t worked for me (Peter). Instead, I see trauma as something experienced within time (maya), whereas the Eternal provides immediate relief from suffering.

    * You are making a distinction, Peter, between two different approaches to healing—one rooted in time (maya) and the other in the Eternal (a state beyond time and suffering).

    Full emotional acknowledgment as a healing path suggests that processing emotions thoroughly—feeling them, understanding them, and working through them—is necessary for healing. This is often the approach people take in therapy or self-reflection, engaging deeply with their pain before moving forward. However, you say that this hasn’t worked for you. Why? You imply that staying in the realm of maya keeps you caught in suffering. Even though acknowledgment is meant to lead to healing, you feel it hasn’t freed you from suffering in a deep way.

    Instead, you see the Eternal as offering immediate relief from suffering—not because trauma doesn’t exist, but because in the Eternal, trauma no longer holds weight or control over the self. Identifying too much with suffering keeps it alive, whereas stepping into an awareness beyond time allows suffering to dissolve naturally.

    It’s an unconventional take—rather than processing suffering as something to be worked through, you view detachment from the entire concept of suffering as a way to transcend it.

    Question # 3: Has your perspective evolved since 2016, or was it already solidified back then?
    Your answer: In 2016, you were searching for understanding through information but got stuck. Later, you shifted to living what you believed instead of just studying it, which led to a transformation in your perspective.

    You described your journey in two phases: (1) 2016: Seeking Understanding Through Information- At this stage, you were “gathering words”—actively searching for meaning by accumulating knowledge. However, you later realized that information isn’t the same as knowing.
    You acknowledge that during this period, you were “dealing but not healing.” In other words, you were intellectually processing ideas but hadn’t yet experienced a transformational shift in how you lived them.

    (2) Later Shift: Believing and Living Truths instead of just learning them- Two years ago, you asked a different question—instead of continuing to search, you wondered: “What if I actually believed in the things I learned were Truths?”
    This marked a turning point where you moved beyond intellectual inquiry and began embodying your beliefs. This shift allowed you to break free from past obstacles and experience a deeper understanding of life and healing. This shift came when you stopped viewing Truth as something to search for and instead started living it.

    Thank you, Peter, for sharing all of this and for your contributions to the forums over the years.
    And now, my little research and thoughts: I just looked it up and indeed some philosophical and spiritual traditions advocate for immediate transcendence, bypassing deep psychological processing or self-analysis:

    Advaita Vedanta is a Hindu philosophical tradition that teaches that the self is already one with the Absolute (Brahman)—there is no need for gradual self-processing, only the direct realization of this truth. Quote (Ramana Maharshi): “You are already that which you seek. The obstacle is the belief that you are not.”

    Some Zen schools emphasize instant awakening rather than gradual self-exploration. Quote (Huang Po): “There is only the One Mind. Why talk of realization? You are already enlightened.”- This implies that seeking understanding is unnecessary—one must simply drop illusions and recognize reality.

    Taoist philosophy suggests that trying to process and understand oneself is counterproductive—true transcendence comes from letting go and flowing with the Tao. Quote (Laozi): “Stop thinking, and end your problems.”- This perspective sees analysis and effort as barriers to transcendence.

    Some Christian mystics emphasize immediate union with God through surrender, rather than deep psychological work.
    These traditions argue that seeking, analyzing, and processing reinforce the illusion of separation, whereas immediate transcendence comes from direct realization, surrender, or effortless awareness. (to be continued)

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444605
    anita
    Participant

    y fully embracing my emotions without resistance, I can stop being defined by my suffering, allowing transcendence into peace. In essence, acceptance clears the path for transcendence, while rejection creates internal barriers.

    I wonder if your transcendence, Peter, is involved with fully embracing your emotions with no resistance?

    * Just as I was about to submit this post, I found out that you submitted a new post in which you reflected on your previous two posts, realizing that you focused too much on methods as paths to understanding when, in reality, the Taoist perspective suggests a pathless path—a way of being rather than a structured approach.

    You acknowledge that despite changing the order of his practices—meditation, contemplation, prayer, dance, art— you were still engaging in method-based healing, rather than allowing life to unfold naturally. You contrast two approaches:

    (1) Intuitive Flow: Moving through life without fixating on resolving past trauma—instead, engaging in presence through movement and stillness.

    (2) Analysis Trap: Letting trauma take attention first, trying to understand it mentally, and then working toward balance—something you liken to overeating chips despite knowing it’ll make you sick (an excess of intellectual analysis without real resolution).

    Your short meditation quote seems to summarize this revelation: Movement creates life, Stillness Love → Action and presence coexist; life unfolds naturally when both are embraced.

    You suggest that this realization shifted how you engage with past memories—seeing them as just past, rather than something that needs direct fixing. You clarify that you are not promoting your experience as a universal solution, but simply sharing your perspective.

    You acknowledge that you still fall into analysis, then remember, then forgets again—implying transcendence isn’t a permanent state but an ongoing shift between presence and intellectual processing.

    I will revisit all this later, of course. But for now, as with all things in life, balance is key—stillness and movement, analysis and non-analysis. Just as excess motion leads to chaos and excess stillness to stagnation, too much analysis traps the mind, while too little leaves needed insight undiscovered. All things in moderation.

    As to me, all my decades-long analyses of my childhood was fruitless until most recently, and the reason was simply that I perceived the analyzer (myself) as worthless, acutely worthless and shameful. Shame has been the most acute. And the fear too, the fear of the next time I will be shamed. No way in heaven or in hell, that I could have transcended these acute painful emotions+ cognitions without facing this Shame and Fear. I am looking these in the eye right now, so to speak. Strangely, befriending them. Not for the purpose of keeping them, but for the purpose of not trying to escape them, a quest I was never successful at. Wow.. befriending all that I am. All. What a concept.

    Developing this a bit further: the more I tried to escape shame and fear, the stronger and more persistent they remained. Accept them, befriend them, and I can almost feel their lack of motivation to stay.

    anita

    anita
    Participant

    The emotions I repressed and suppressed are more than anything, way more- is Love for her, Love for my mother who was- to me- the MOST IMPORTANT person in the world, would have done anything, EVERYTHING for her. That dedication was No 1 in my psyche.

    I would still do anything, everything for her if there was a chance that I could make a difference, a positive difference for her.

    Okay, so that’s the LOVE for her, everlasting.

    That she hated me in return for my love, well, that’s unfortunate. I can’t change it.

    I don’t want to resist this truth, to fight it. it is what it is.

    That she placed no value for my love, that she did not consider my love for her as something of any significance, that’s her thing. Unfortunately she just didn’t consider me anything of significance. Not her fault: she just couldn’t see me- little anita- as anything that was of any worth for her.

    From her point of view, I was a thing, a thing of no consequence, of no purpose. Just a thing.

    And so, I lived my life as a thing of no consequence, of no purpose, A thing of no worth.

    But I am a creature of worth, of consequence, of purpose: I am!

    I can make a positive difference in people’s lives.

    anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444593
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Peter:

    I am looking forward to processing your two posts tomorrow morning. I am excited about it, really.

    “Does trauma exists in love/eternal? No.’- this is comforting to read.

    anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444585
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Peter:

    I’ve been reflecting on our discussions, and it occurred to me that I may be able to offer some helpful feedback. As someone who has read through many of your posts—perhaps more than any other member besides yourself—I’ve noticed how consistent you’ve been over the years in your responses and the themes you explore.

    Your honesty and depth of thought stand out, and you’ve remained true to your perspective. At the same time, I didn’t notice significant shifts in awareness or new understandings developing over time (though, of course, I haven’t read everything, and I may have missed important moments).

    It makes me curious—do you feel your perspective has evolved since 2016, or do you see your understanding as something that was already solidified back then?

    anita

    in reply to: Feeling Stuck #444584
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Mollie:

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts with such openness. Your reflections show a deep awareness of your patterns, and that in itself is progress.

    I really appreciate that you’re recognizing the nuance in your situation, particularly the idea that your job isn’t the singular cause of your struggles, but it has certainly contributed to them. The fact that you don’t expect all your problems to disappear in July 2025 shows that your thinking is becoming more balanced.

    At the same time, I can sense the frustration of not feeling like your usual optimistic self. You mentioned that you want reassurance that you won’t “go back” to how you felt last summer—but perhaps instead of fearing emotional ups and downs, it might help to trust that they are part of life and don’t define your progress. Feeling low sometimes doesn’t undo the growth you have made.

    You have always seen yourself as a happy, glass-half-full person, and maybe part of this journey is learning that being optimistic doesn’t mean avoiding low moments—it means navigating them with self-compassion. People who thrive emotionally still experience phases of uncertainty or exhaustion—but those phases don’t undo their growth.

    I also noticed that your decision-making feels off, which makes sense given the stress your job brings. When we feel trapped in an environment that doesn’t energize us, even simple decisions—what to do after work, how to unwind—can feel overwhelming. You asked, “What do you think?”—I think that a break would likely help, but more importantly, framing this time not as a setback, but as an adjustment period would relieve some pressure. You’re adapting to changes, and part of that is rediscovering what fulfillment means outside of school and structured plans.

    One last thought—you mentioned someone returning in June and not knowing what to say. It sounds like this connection still holds some weight for you. What feels unresolved there? Would addressing it help clear some of your mental space?

    Overall, you’ve made a lot of progress, even if it doesn’t always feel like it. What if you stopped measuring joy as something you need to achieve permanently, and instead let it come and go naturally, trusting that it always returns?

    anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444583
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Peter:

    I think you answered my questions back on April 2, 2018, exactly 7 years ago 😲: “It is an interesting paradox that it takes a strong and healthy ego to detach itself from the Self… The problem arises when we attach our sense of Self to the ego… we unconsciously attach the self and consciousness to our experiences, thoughts and or emotions. “I” (which is a construct of language) becomes attached to a sense of identity… I am my experiences, I am my thoughts, I am my emotions, I am my ego… I am a construct of language… and we end up in knots, a plaything of emotions and manipulations… a consciousness that is fixated on a emotion, thoughts, experience and all the pain that that brings… any letting go evolves a kind of dying. We make space for something else to emerge. It is a leap into uncertainty. A part of the ego that we cling is the idea that we can control the life/death/life process that is LIFE. Letting go of that is scary so we hang on and the more we cling the more we suffer… and the more we cling…. until we let go… Equals “dying” is painful…. There is a time for everything including attaching our sense of self to our ego and the language construct “I” (which is mistaking the map for the territory). As we awaken to the process we develop a healthy sense of self that “knows” when its time to let it go and make room for what comes next.”-

    – Your perspective suggests that healing is a process, not an instant shift—that detachment becomes possible only after certain internal work is done. Your words imply that forcing detachment too soon, before the self is ready, isn’t helpful. You acknowledge that processing trauma is needed at first, but ultimately, you see detachment as the final step—a transition that happens when the time is right, not something to rush. In this view, trauma survivors must reach a certain level of self-awareness and inner stability before detachment can truly work.

    One part of your reflections stood out to me this morning: “Any letting go evolves a kind of dying. We make space for something else to emerge.”

    That resonates deeply with where I am right now.

    This morning, as I turned on my computer, I had a strange experience. I thought about doing everything right today, and suddenly, I felt peaceful, optimistic—even euphoric. Then, a memory surfaced: this was how I used to feel growing up. Back then, every beginning day felt like an opportunity to do everything just right, where no mistakes will be made and no criticism will follow.

    Before this morning, I remembered striving to get everything right, but I had long forgotten the emotional part—the euphoria itself. This is what I meant when I spoke about abandoned parts of myself left behind in the past, needing to be reclaimed before I can move forward.

    Remembering that feeling today was like picking up a lost piece of myself from the side of the road—taking it with me, integrating it, and continuing walking forward on the main road.

    processing the above: picking up this memory of emotion is essential for healing because emotional reconnection restores lost parts of the self. When trauma or life experiences cause disconnection, certain emotions—like hope, joy, or optimism— become fragmented, buried, or forgotten. Healing isn’t just about understanding what happened—it’s about reclaiming the full emotional experience that was lost along the way.

    Remembering that euphoric feeling from childhood isn’t just a memory—it’s a piece of me that was abandoned, left behind when survival took precedence over emotional wholeness. By recognizing it, I am not just recalling an old sensation— I am reintegrating a part of myself, making space for it to exist again in the present.

    Healing is about reclaiming what was lost before moving forward. I can’t let go when too much of me is still left behind. There has to be enough of me intact to make letting go possible—because if too much is missing, I won’t have enough of myself to withstand the release.

    Thank you, peter, for making this processing possible for me.

    anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444579
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Peter and Alessa:

    I agree with you, Alessa, “I think the difficulty with severe abuse is that it causes structural issues – brain damage as well as deregulating the nervous system. It is not just that there is attachment. If only it were as simple as attachment.”

    For survivors, trauma isn’t only a mental construct that can be resolved by detachment—it’s a lived, embodied experience that leaves lasting psychological and physiological effects.

    Psychologists argue that detachment is problematic when used to bypass emotional processing. Trauma survivors often need to actively engage with their experiences rather than detach from them, as avoidance can lead to suppressed emotions and unresolved pain.

    Excessive detachment can lead to emotional numbness, making it difficult to form meaningful relationships or process emotions in a healthy way. Some forms of detachment—such as dissociation—are linked to trauma responses, where individuals disconnect from reality as a defense mechanism.

    Detachment can be helpful in reducing stress and gaining perspective, but it is not a substitute for emotional processing. For trauma survivors, active healing—through acknowledgment, integration, and self-compassion— are necessary before detachment can be beneficial.

    Peter, you appear to be suggesting that trauma is real only in the temporal world but not in the eternal world. Your perspective seems to align with the idea that suffering, betrayal, and separation exist in human experience (the temporal realm), but in the greater reality (the eternal realm), wholeness was never truly lost.

    I understand that you see trauma as real only in the human, time-bound experience, but not in the greater reality of wholeness (a belief that I still find comfort in). You suggest that awakening to this eternal truth dissolves suffering, rather than needing to “fix” past wounds.

    This makes me wonder—does acknowledging the reality of trauma in the temporal world interfere with awakening, or is it a necessary step toward it?

    You argued that processing betrayal only leads to “dealing with” it, not healing. But for many trauma survivors, full healing requires first recognizing the reality of harm before transcendence is possible. If betrayal is treated as merely a mental construct sustained by identification, there’s a risk of bypassing the deep emotional and physiological effects that trauma leaves behind.

    Here’s my question: Does detachment need to be preceded by acknowledgment and emotional integration, or do you see transcendence as an immediate path forward? If trauma is “not real” in the ultimate sense, does that mean the suffering attached to it doesn’t warrant full emotional acknowledgment before moving on?

    I’d love to hear your perspective on this.

    anita

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444566
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Peter:

    About you feeling misunderstood, I am sorry Peter. Sincerely, I think that your intelligence is significantly superior to mine and it’s difficult for me to catch up.

    “Healing coming from closing the distance to the Relationship with Self. My experience has been that when the latter is addressed the temporal now long past experiences resolves by de-solving.”- You say true healing comes not from revisiting the past, but from deepening the Relationship with Self.

    But I have to revisit the past- and believe it really happened- because my self was left, abandoned, in places along that past.

    “So the question what are you seeking?”- myself. The abandoned parts of self left along the way.

    “Perhaps a better question. When does the seeker get to be one who found?”- maybe this very Tuesday evening, April (not Fool?) Day. Collecting the pieces left along the past: here’s the piece that wants to be loved, here’s the piece that’s so very scared, here’s the piece that.. wait, reverse, here’s the piece that so desperately want to be loved: “oh love me, love me, PLEASE!”

    There it is: I am seeking love. I know it’s true because there are tears in my eyes. I always sought love, a thing that wasn’t there for me. it wasn’t there.

    “So the question what are you seeking?”- Love, as Always.

    anita

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