hello belinda

this sounds like a very dangerous situation

the boys are very young and possibly, in a bad case, they “echo” each other with words about outrage/revenge etc.

– i hope you can talk to the police
– consider moving away from there (i mean just considering): arkansas seems to be a more racist state in the us
(according to https://www.thetoptens.com/states-provinces/most-racists-states-us/)
– maybe you can use google / google maps to find any parties you can talk to or get help
(i searched this site but it has no anti-racism office if that is a thing anyway…: https://arktimes.com/arkansas-blog/2021/01/08/where-to-get-help-a-resource-list); or a hotline to get help maybe??
– talk to your taekwondo coach, maybe ask for help, talk about the fight just like you explained it in your post and that you fear your opponent might still feel  agitated and growing his hostility seeking for revenge
– if anyhow possible speak to any people that seem kind, more open, peaceful/adult etc. …. to get witnesses/allies
– maybe you can find someone to walk you home (for instance after taekwondo) etc. so you don’t walk around alone much
– if there is room for kindness/diplomacy you can visit the boy in hospital (and bring some friends of yours to be more protected) and bring flowers and excuse… (if you have a way to take the first step towards them, that lets you know better how they feel and you get a current view over the situation. on the other hand their beliefs are likely very strong and this can also still be very dangerous or just in vain)

hi emma

you have a shell/armor spirit that protects you and draws a line

but you also have a very strong spirit that values to remain a true ally/friend

both these spirits are very valuable! your very difficult job is to fully merge them so without one compromising the other!!

(like Roberta and Stellardust mention each 🙂 )

this is a journey, i don’t know if there is an easy, clear answer and how the future will look like.

but maybe these two spirits of yours can guide you to find other/new precious qualities in a future relationship, because you already have them in yourself

kind regards 🌼

hello maida

this sounds terrible. is there anything you can do? maybe you can try to carry your spirits with your remaining energy 🙁

and what would be the kind of person that you wanted to know or appreciate? i hope you find a way… as humans we always seek for a solution… but maybe you cannot repair yourself… but healing and repairing aren’t the same either

kind regards 🌞