I agree with the above post . It doesn’t sound like you cheated to me .
Enjoy your marriage in the present moment. Be happy you found a good husband . We all have minor or major hang ups about others while we are in relationships , that is just human nature . It’s how you act upon them that makes the difference . Innocent flirting is not a crime . Sexual affairs to me should be a crime .
Forget about the past . Live in the moment and love your husband 🙂

Hey life doesn’t always run smooth all the time for everyone . There are always times of uncertainty , flux and yes it sucks . Uncertainty is scary . When things do come around though , as they will , you may even appreciate these down times . They are sort of like growing pains and whether you realize it or not you are learning & growing as we speak . And I say all this because I am in a similar place . I’m in emotional pain during this time of year and not as busy as I’d like to be as my work (which I do love) is seasonal . I am eternally optimistic however pained I may be .
Good Luck, you sound like you’re heading in the right direction 🙂

Hi Mary , I am with you on this one . Your description of being lonely made me chuckle a bit only because it sounds like me ! Even though I love reading it gets sickening after awhile when you are craving socializing with people . You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders and you also sound young . It is actually a good thing that you are focusing on career .
I have been lonely for years it seems . You can be married and have many friends and still feel lonely – it’s like a feeling of ‘this isn’t really me or who I am “. (I am no longer married and have left those friend behind because they were toxic)
I try to be a well balanced person and constantly get out where I can meet people – clubs , classes , small talk with strangers , what have you . I am also socially outgoing and love talking with people so it really HURTS ME that I am so lonely .
Btw I have had many nightmare experiences from online dating and I would not suggest it . I live in a fairly large size city as well .
Lonliness hurts like hell as you know . A real pain . But it seems like we all have our crosses to bear and from these challenges hopefully we will learn and that good will come from it ! ! 🙂
There is a quote that says it is better to be alone than to be in bad company which really makes me wonder how lonely this person was !
I think there is also this thing today where a lot of people have friends but they are not true blue friends nor would they be there for them if they really needed them . That is definitely a societal dilemma in our technological age . I definitely think that neither you or I are alone in this matter !
Peace and Best Wishes to you !