Hi @The Ruminant

Thank you for your response – I never see it from this angle.

You’re right, when I was young I never cared whether the other girl liked strawberry bubble gum or collecting barbie like me. We just hit it off. Why cant be as easy as that now?!

It’s true that all I want is to have someone else to share laugh, sorrow and silliness together. Someone/people that respect and accept me as I am. Most people I met now, all they want is to get drunk and go to the club! I have passed that phase in my life and I really want is just to chat over a cup of coffee or wine and just different kind of fun, I think. Like you, I call my self a nerd too! I’m a deep thinker and I would love to meet someone what I can have a good conversation about life and how can we make it better!! My poor bf, he’s very supportive however, I need to have my own circle of friends.

I’m thinking of joining groups too. Not sewing – as I am totally useless at it!! But definitely dancing and wine testing. The only fear I have is to show up in these groups on my own. You know, Billy no mates… but hey, I shouldn’t let the fear get in the way of what I want!?

Thank you @The Ruminant, it’s very insightful! I really appreciate it.

Much Love! xo

Hi Rewa

I’m sorry to hear that things are so hard for you. It’s never a good thing to feel so lonely and helpless. First of all I need you to take 3 deep breaths and say to your self that It’s going to be Ok.

Times when we feel with negativeness, we MUST allow some room for positiveness because it is VERY VERY easy to wallowing in our misery. Think about things that make you happy, old memories or even think about the sun in shining. Anything to take you to that calm, safe and pain-free place. Stay there for a while…

Everyone deserve to be loved and to be happy, including you but like Luna said we need to love and getting to know ourselves first. Why can’t you reach out to your parents? Rewa, hiding something to people that are dear to you is harming. Don’t do it. They’re your parents and like you said they love you very much! Then reach out to them!

You said you dont have any job.Are you actively looking? If things are tough why dont you do volunteering? You will meet new people in your area and gaining experience too at the same time.

I dont believe that life is unfair, Rewa. It’s all down to us how to ‘use’ our life. We have the control. Unfortunate things do happens however, again, it’s up to us how we’re dealing with that.

I hope that this helps.

Much love xo

Hi Luna

Thank you for the reply.

You are spot on! I have a lot of ‘friends’ but I’m lacking the ones that are truly like minded and share same interests. I dont think I am an introvert as I’m quite happily talk to random people in the tube. And maybe you’re also right about that I’m different. I know that I’m not the same person as I was a year ago.

I tried to form a friendship with 3 girls at work as I saw them and thought ‘yeah, they’re cool.’ I put effort in and unfortunately the more you spend time with people, the more you know about them.. with that you can say to your self that this friendship is sustainable or not. Unfortunately these ones were not. Two of them were too pushy and too strong minded and the other one was very insecure that I found my self had to stroke her ego. So I decided let the whole thing go.

With the case above someone told me that I’m quite radical as I dont give people chances…! But my feelings said I should let it go and all I did just followed my gut.

I’m still searching and getting to know myself better. Sometime I’m ok with this situation but I do hope one day I would meet someone that be my friend.

Thanks Luna.

Much Love xo