The hurt will get better over time. Hang in there and try and be open to new things. Good luck!

I’ve been through this exact thing. We did the month thing, then got back together for more than another year but the second time she was less committal than before and she just wanted to steal more time with me while figuring other things out. She was my the one too and definitely did love me. I’ll always love her but I try to go out and find someone else, it’s all you can do. Also, over time it does get better, for me I was pretty crushed for a solid year, and still wake up from dreams where we are back together. But it’s less and less frequent, and it hurts a lot less. Best of luck. Just don’t waste anymore time on this!

All I can say is I know how you feel. I am going through almost the exact same thing. My decision to move on was a year and a half ago, and things get easier over time. In my case a lot of the issues were similar and I know we very much loved one another but whenever things went in a direction to get more committed she would freak out and/or sabotage the relationship. It was after 3 and a half years I left after many attempts to get us moving forward again. Now I’m 41 and out here in the totally different dating world and it’s intimidating but my advice is get on meetup or similar sites and keep trying, though with some moderation between you time and date time.