Hello Jng15,

Thank you for your message.
For me there are not enough words to describe true compassion, it’s too deep to describe it with words. The main idea I have now about compassion is that it’s about not harming others and not harming yourself. Helping others without getting harmed or sacrificed in the process. Fulfill yourself and discover your truth so you can find authentic peace and share it with the world around you.

You can visit me whenever you want, I’ll be waiting.

Regards from Costa Rica;

Dave

The idea of this life is not to be independent but interdependent. Growing together we obtain better results. Thank you for inspiring me Anita 🙂

Regards from Costa Rica,

Dave

Hi Anita,

For me that golden spark is something that we all have but we forget about it. I can clearly remember a moment at the age of 7 years when I said to myself: “I’m gonna be a good boy at the school”, it turned out to be a good man at this life time. I decided to walk around in the world without an armor and let my inner self to express itself, to discover the truth about me. I know that right now I can’t help other people as I want, since I’m going through a healing and acceptance process of my past. I want to find peace within myself to share it with everyone I can.
As I said in other post, I can feel that my purpose will be to serve, to help people to realize their full potential, to make people smile, to be simple and genuine. There are so many thoughts in my head right now that I can’t write how deep they are.

Thanks for your guidance Anita;

Dave

Hello everyone, thank you for replying my post 🙂

@Annie, you’re right. I’m always looking outside (people problems, pain or that sort of situation) to “use” compassion, never thought about internalizing the meaning of it to a deep level, trying to comprehend how much can I offer without draining myself as you said. Your post gave me a much more deeper sense of what compassion is. Thank you!

@msseekree, I apologize for my English, it’s pretty bad actually. My mother language is Spanish so it’s kinda difficult to make sentences using the correct words and grammar, please forgive me for that.

@anita , as always you help me to understand better my most inner issues. Since I was a child I lived in a very “toxic” enviroment. My mom tried to commit suicide more than 10 times, I always treated her body wounds, she also used drugs and consumed alcohol. My father left home when I was 2 years old, after that my mom lost everything (home, car, job and mental health). That left me as a 12 years old boy, living alone and working to pay my food. Right now I’m struggling with a very destructive behaviour uncle and my grandma who suffers from Alzheimer. I’m 20 years old now and I thought I forgave my parents and family for leaving me alone but there’s something inside my mind that tells me I can’t do it yet. The price for all that is to live alone and being a very lonely person. There are many more things to tell but I really don’t wanna bother you all with my entire story, those situations above are the most painful ones for me. Thank your for taking time to read it 🙂

@Saiisha , actually you grasp it much more better than me. Thank you for helping me to understand Dilgo Rinpoche’s words in a more simple way. Many many thanks 🙂

Regards for Costa Rica

Dave

Hello again 🙂

Today I went to pay visit to my grandma, my uncle was there too (drunk as always). I put in practice what you told me LDR, Inky, Alex and Anita, the whole experience was different. I felt more comfortable and when he tried to talk I gave him a polite answer and went to the backyard to plant some hot chili seeds, my grandma loves planting stuff. For the first time I experienced some sort of freedom and separation from the current situation at the family house.

About my uncle’s harmful behaviour: I think the verbal offense is his “best weapon”, he often bully at me for being gay (it actually doesn’t hurt me) but when it comes to insult my mother or yell at my grandmother the situation becomes very tense and let’s say, toxic. He just wants to create the perfect moment to start a fight.

I wish I can continue to develop more this new capacity in me, thank you all for teaching me.

Regards;

Dave

Thank you all for your responses!

It’s kinda weird for me to start a new life with nothing but myself life and a new home with some space to plant trees, vegetables and live with some chickens (that’s my dream hehe). I know that sounds very unrealistic for todays world but I feel an urge for do it, I don’t want anything else, well, at least after a few years of saving money from my work I can afford it.

I’m leaving everything from my country, breaking boundaries with my family and even selling my little apartment. I’m very affraid but deep inside me I know that this is fate for me, I feel I must do it.

Bar, Inky and Michael, thank you for inspiring me and helping me. It’ll be great if we can share more words.

Waiting for a change,

Dave.