@ElleTinker700 Thank you for your advice. I don’t think that our stories are similar but the advice at the end can still be applied. Allow me to just clarify my story again just in case you may re-evaluate your advice. The person I am thinking of talking to cannot be considered my ex-best friend. If you want, she can be considered my ex. It was complicated. We started of as friends, then she got infatuated with me. I liked her for a start but it was only after a while that I started to fall in love with her. Like all infatuations, our relationship could barely take off since her infatuation died down and she realized she didn’t feel the same way for me. I convinced her to give me another chance but things just went from bad to worse. She just found me annoying and that we were incompatible. The ‘friends’ whom I confided in were actually part of her ‘clique’ and to be honest, I wasn’t considering the fact that I was not as close to them as they were to my ex. Unfortunately, when she found out that she was judged, she got mad and said that I shouldn’t have brought her friends into issues between us. Note that she used “her friends”. There seems to be a clean line drawn between me, and them. She was angry, wanted everything to end and not contact each other anymore. She even said to “remove each other from our lives”. I will always remember those words she used. I was the one who, once again, fought for whatever was left – a friendship. I don’t know if I was just being obsessed with her or what. I always thought we were close but after hearing the things she said about not trusting me, it feels like everything was built based on her infatuation and all was an illusion. I do yearn for a good friendship but at the same time, things will never be the way it was anymore. I really don’t want to assume that she will ignore me but hearing the words she said and the way she blocked me and asked her friends to block me as well, I do not know how else to interpret her actions. I am really considering the fact that you said ” If you can’t find the strength to get a hold of her, than that should tell you right there that you don’t truly love & value the relationship that much to take that step in contacting her.” I strongly believe in this as well. However, I also believe that the one who walked away should be the one to take the first step in repairing the relationship. And if she doesn’t, it shows that she does not truly love and value the relationship. Let me know what are your thoughts on my reply.

You are spot on. I went to an 8 while she dropped to 3. I have learned my lesson that throwing more love at the initial stages doesn’t work well. I didn’t have to distant myself away from her since she already cut me off. I think feel too hurt to loiter around now even if she didn’t cut me off. I know time will heal but at the moment, I am just really tired and frustrated while trying not to dwell and feel sad. I think a love-hate feeling for someone is torturous. I hope the day I no longer think of the incident will arrive soon. This is really a growth experience for me. Thank you for your advice.