Like you have mentioned, when you expect something to happen and it doesn’t happen, you feel bad because there is a sense of self righteousness. You think that you can control the outcome of the situation. Hope on the other hand, you try your best for a desired outcome, and wish that it becomes true regardless. I think it has less self righteousness or ego. With hope, the bell doesn’t ring until it rings. With expectation, the bell has already rung. This is my input! 🙂

You just do it… Don’t think about the process of change… You think that change would take time but it happens in an instant. Start to let go of all those negative feelings and thoughts you have listed, and start feeling positive NOW and don’t stop thinking POSITIVELY and never focus feeling positively! Your desire to think or feel those negative thoughts are shaping your future in a negative way. When you bring positive feelings and concentrate on it, your thoughts change also. Your state of being would “improve”. You gain more clarity, and how you can better move forward and make your life more fulfilling. “Be enthusiastic as hellllll!”

Some activities you may try could be: fitness, listening to positive upbeat music, hobbies, etc. just get your mind off from thinking that you’re not good enough or the environment has affected you because you’re not deserving enough. You have the power to change your own feelings and thoughts, not the other way around. When you reach a point where pain can no longer affect you, you have trained your mind to think clearly like a monk and become a more attractive human being… like a lotus flower.

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Hello,

I’m going to become an outlier for myself and state something totally out of my regular commenting spectrum. From what I’ve read, it seems that you’ve done your homework, and have researched on various ground on which option suits you best. Even though laying out your choices and thinking about picking which one you’d like to choose, like as if someone were to bring you several grand dishes and you get to choose which food you like to eat, which is perfectly fine… but I think the question is… what food you want to eat… tune out your fears and negative what ifs… this is an important part of your life, and it would define your future. Know what drives you and find your core and work towards it or to stick to a path that’s closest to it. Everything else would stay: if it’s meant to be then it’s meant to be… if not then maybe it’s not… Sometimes life’s a science… based on trails and failures…. when it’s finally perfect, then something new pops up….. Just because you’re scared of something doesn’t necessarily mean that it won’t happen… So trust yourself, and make the right decision 🙂

Hi Ominion,

So you are saying some artists are not open to other artist’s work? Due to their high ego…? I think it’s a problem if an artist is not open to works other than his or her own, hence narrow perspective…

I agree, it’s interesting to learn about what makes and distinguishes classical / historical artists from one another. Just like how I do enjoy hearing the works of a great classical composer (something I can recall) in mid of a classical music performance.

Would be nice to see someone create an awesome, inspiring, historically changing art…

…But your post really made me want to share my visiting remembrance from one museum….

I don’t know what it’s supposed to represent, but I saw an art piece presented at MOMA San Francisco (I think… Or it could be somewhere else) and it was a portrait of a bread slice. My sister and I laughed soooo much without trying to catch attention from other visitors… Of all that I could think of from that museum, that slice of white and not wheat bread stuck to my head till this day. We’re like joking and said like, “oh we could eat that…”

It was really new, but it was very interesting.

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The answer to your question: don’t look at life as a stressful challenge.

It’s funny how we think that by getting somewhere, like from point A to point B, we’ll be truly happy. We pass point B numerous times in our lives.

Be merciful in your goals. No one’s perfect, and everyone… and I mean everyone fails and don’t make it but only the few keep on trying.

All you really need in yourself to not feel like a failure is the will to get rid of those negative temptations, thoughts, feelings, etc. and to stay on the “positives”.

If your life is challenging, then “un-challenge” certain aspects; If you’re mad by not reaching your goals, maybe your goals are not meant to be achieved; If you like compliments based on looks only, then…. I don’t know what to say about that. I think they complimented you on the discipline you took to get your body the way it looked. So keep yourself disciplined.

…..But life and in fitness training, and etc., whatever you do, you don’t have to be a robot to achieve your goals. Be flexible in your spirit and your heart. You can achieve same goals by taking those two roads, but one is more “fulfilling to the soul” vs. “empty inside”. Hope for the best, and may grace be on your journey.

Namaste

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Hello,

You’re right about certain things. You can’t go back to the past and change it… I recently watched a movie, “About Time” where the main character can travel back in time to change situations -> events -> thus future. It was a great concept, but it does not exist in reality. Looking for ways to look back to negativity is unproductive and unfulfilling. We’re not computers -> we don’t have the capability to move a file to a trash bin, and to empty it, that is why it’s natural for those bad memories to pop up at any time. What you “can” do, is to discipline your mind to be focused on the present, to resist the temptation to be driven to those negativity and wrongful events, and to start correcting your life’s path as of this moment. Though correcting your life’s path is not always perfect, and it may take some time -> like you can’t lift 100lb dumbbell when you can only lift 10lb, but I think it’s the only way to prevent or to resist those temptations. Pardon my language but JENGA those structures you have written about… a mind map of looking back and trying to fix them is like bringing up x100 of those bad events in your mind. Because you’re able to define between what’s right and what wrong… hence you’re able to write this post: Follow your heart, and let your intuition be the guide to start making the right and correct decisions apart from what you believe is wrong. Discipline allows you to take control of things you can control in your life. Everything else, leave it to a higher being up above.

Namaste

Thanks for sharing

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Hello Anei,

Congrats on your first post! You seem like a very good hearted person, and you do care about this friend of yours. I think everything is just situation in life. Sometimes I see that situations direct what happens. If you happen to be at the right moment with this semi-acquantice at the right time, with the right motives, and the right environment your expression of feelings may come to him naturally. It’s usually trying to force things to happen leads to many stressful events and getting your feelings expressed in ways you didn’t want to have it expressed in my experience. I see that you have 2 months stay before you leave, and he’s working all the time which means timing may not be all too perfect, but it’s kind of like that for most people. Get your feelings expressed to him naturally and there’s nothing you need to worry about! Your heart is strong… with time, I’m sure the right situation would be presented to you and your feelings would be expressed in the way you want to have it expressed. Be sincere about your feelings, so you can receive that sincere feeling back to you.

Namaste…

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Yup… I had this problem… even till a point where I literally said to the other person “I’m sorry …. _____ I have crazy mood swings”, and the other person would look at me very confused, like… wtheck… do I even know you that well personally?….. n he didn’t respond or take it seriously (thank God)……At that moment I realized that I just had a mental breakdown. In my opinion he looked very tired and depressed after I’ve said that and I started feeling even worse. The thing is, the mood swings happens to everyone, and it’s inevitable bc we are all alike. Try thinking this way, I believe everyone deals with it but they just try not to let it show it. Because I want to show them that I’m tough enough to not let it show. Btw one book I’ve read said that even though you may seem like you’re about to have an emotional outbreak or crises and think that the world is coming to an end, the other party may just look at you and the reaction they present is nothing or cynical because in reality nothing is really happening!!!.. and you just look bored. So try to get your thought away from negatives and keep transitioning your thoughts to something else when you’re dealing with those excessively low mood swings. It’s all up to you mentally. I know it’s not easy, and it may not work sometimes when oh boy those crazy mood swings… but even with your really bad mood swings it’s not as bad as you think. Those same people that may take up that so called crazy mood and walk away would be in the very same shoes passing his or her mood swings to other people at a different time and location thinking same thing you just been through. And the thing is when I see other people go through a crazy mood swing, I don’t criticize or want them to just disappear from this earth or anything so why should they? we’re all alike… like one and we live to forgive and to learn to grow 🙂