I will be up all night and have to go to a job in the freezing cold in the morning and deal with someone who has zero respect for me. I’m ok to call last minute when someone else calls out. I’m ok when I get hurt at work. I’m ok when I am in pain. For all those things I am ok. The minute I stand up for myself is the minute everything is not ok. For the ones who think they got me beat and they know who they are…you can’t beat me. You can’t beat me and can’t control me which makes me nothing to you. I have truth and integrity and I’m not giving them up and that is why you will never win.

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It’s a lot easier if bullies weren’t defended so much as being the poor little victums they are not. They are free to do as much damage as they can because people let them get away with it. As long as they provide them with something (praise, house, companionship…) they don’t care what they do to others. I wouldn’t put up with someone stepping over someone else which is why I am alone. I wouldn’t tolerate it.

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The men I would be interested in are never around. My experience has been being used, resented, ignored, yelled at, hurt, mistreated, worked hard, insulted…everything that I value about myself means nothing to them.

It’s hard to fake it when you have been alone as long as I have. I am intelligent enough to know that I have to get out more and make myself attractive but I am holding out for someone who sincerely likes me and wants to be around me and not for what he can get from me.

I think marriage is far too common. I think it should only be for people who really want to be commited to someone else otherwise it is cheap as far as I am concerned.

I don’t know how to create a love life…I am an intelligent woman and I do not know how to create a love life and unless you have experienced my experience you can’t possibly understand how I feel. I am sitting here tonight downloading a life coach app…the 2017 equivalent of going to the library when I was 15 and reading up on how to improve my life. I have been doing what I am doing tonight since I was in my early teens. If you know how old I am then you know how long, how many years, days I have spent trying to change my life. Many people, men and women may have struggled here and there with what I struggled with but you would be hard pressed to find someone who’s love life has been a complete 0. You can’t imagine how I feel. I feel cheated and punished. If I could have found one person who I was attracted to, who was attracted to me I would feel so different right now. Why do I have to be alone all the time when I don’t want to be?

I don’t want to waste my time dating men I don’t want to have a relationship with. I would know right away so dating is scary for me. I don’t want to date. I want to be married. I don’t want to pretend to like or reject anyone.

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Anita I can’t find anyone who doesn’t support the injustice because there is a payoff for people that do. They have families, friends admirers because they keep their mouths shut about what happens to true victums and spend most of their time complaining about what they are willing to put up with. Some women who complain are usually the ones taking care of their husbands and women who remain silent about everything are usually being taken care of.

Anita I am trying to respond but I am still not ready. Want to also respond to the other person who posted but have so much going on and haven’t had much time to myself other than to sleep.

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Joe and Anita I will respond to both of your posts tonight. I am at my job currently. Thank you.

You know I can’t say what I want. Because on top if my injury my intelligence gets insulted. Everywhere I go I have to play a game. Work, outside, even in a forum, I have to pretend and opressors are felt sorry for. I am really sad now because not only do I have to deal with my opressors I have to hear people defend them and worse say that they are not doing anything wrong and making them out to be the victums. That is the story of my life.

I am only wanted temporarily for work until my body completely gives out. I am very intelligent but another member pointed out in her thread that if your real people don’t like it.

The evidence shows that obviously that some can be real initially but how long will that be tolerated? I can’t believe the subtle reminders that I am insignificant. Well many are missing out because I have everything.

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I am not doing well right now. No, people do not understand because very few people experience the level of loneliness that I have had/ have to endure. Even if they have been alone for 10 years somewhere along the way they were connected to someone. Not only do I have to endure my situation but I have to endure it silently. I am in trouble emotionally and it feels like I’m going down and people are just watching me go down. That basically says it all. I don’t understand why this happened to me.

Nothing could help me…everything I had..My looks, my talents, my intelligence…none of it could or can save me. Do you have any idea how devastated I am over that?

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