So the next hurdle I am pondering is cycles… Is everything we do cyclical? Are all relationships going in circles? Is my mood cyclical with my menstrual cycle? Is my feeling of love cyclical? I’ve been recording my mood and it seems like I have the same feelings of sadness at the start of the week. I look back into my relationship and see that I was more in love at certain times of the month then other. I see patterns in relationships with others and in their nature. Does this mean I’m living a live on auto-pilot? Is this the natural way of existence going back to the cycle of life? Lots of activity going on in my head, maybe I should go visit “the thinker” 🙂

I’m mourning today, bought some sage and going to burn it in my room… I hope everyone is having a good Monday!

You’re wisdom and time responding is much appreciated. Did you acquire this knowledge through personal experience or were you gifted with just knowing? I’m glad you relate life’s journey to food as I’m a foodie and totally get it. I’m off to find that authentic confidence…

So tonight I went to a First Friday food truck night by myself, I don’t have that many friends so I do a lot on my own. I was fine at first, but grew to be very anxious. It hit me that the world is huge and that I could take any path in life. Instead of being excited about it, I got anxious and worried so I decided to leave. It was also very crowded. Maybe it was too much too soon?? I rode my bike there and told myself the feeling of nervousness would pass. I forced myself to stop at a bar on my way home for a beer. That was my night, but still pondering the epiphany about about the huge world, the endless ppl and many paths I can choose from. It’s almost overwhelming to fathom since my world has been my ex. Thoughts?

Thank you Sara, I hear what you are saying, “They are being done with an empty heart because there is not a lot of room for new things until the old things are processed and released.” This is a key component of recovering and letting go. Trust me, I am not overloading my schedule to not allow myself to mourn. This past Monday and Tuesday were very teary. The emotions come in like the tide, some days good and others where I need to just cry. I have that luxury as I don’t go back to work until the 19th. I’m very aware and want to go through the healing process the right way and not some easy and cheap way. I need to learn and evolve as a human being. Last time this happened I started dating right away and I don’t think that worked to my advantage… xo

“So I am trying to do new things in moderation and focusing on the present not the new possibilities because that is in the future. I am also trying to meditate to help me focus. I really don’t want to be a jack of all trades and master of none. I would prefer to be a jack of all trades and at least a master of one.”

This is exactly it! Thank you for taking the time and shedding some light on the situation. Your words are well written and make sense.

Mucho Amor,

L