Very interesting the TFlame experience is very complex. Again, i wouldnt worry about it. It comes to people when it’s relevant to them. Some people have twin flames they never meet, but they always feel them. I think it’s kind of wild that many of the people who started researching and identifying it met their TFlames in their sleep, but found their TFlames werent incarnate in this life. It’s simply a label. But all in all, everyone teaches us something. And I guess some things we’ll never know.

In terms of me and L. I was running at first and L was very attached to me. Then a certain instance happened when we connected after staring in eachothers eyes and i remembered everything. Right before that moment i had no idea what TF was and right before I was getting signs about TF , people out of nowhere was talking to me about TF, and when i was journaling i got images of TF before i knew what it was. When we stared in eachothers eyes (we always did that), but in that particular instance i had realized she might be. I ran from it, i thought it was irrational and just in my head. but i kept getting overwhelming signs. I still do, it’s one of those things you just have to allow to take its course. even when not together. Ive always been spiritual but never experienced that, i felt crazy and didnt want to tell L. but eventually, I like indirectly posted in on my social media. And they responded letting me know they were getting the same signs. I told them about the runner thing, they admitted to running. They still were in denial about even being attracted to me or wanting a relationship, while at the same time trying to stay connected, but never said the words TFlame. I know they know we have a strong intuitive bond though. it’s a challenging one. And honestly, i wouldnt have consciously chose it. lol. Though i love her to pieces. I’m okay with just a regular soulmate, didnt need all the extras. then again, i did need the growth. i wouldnt have been a life coach when i was if it werent for meeting her. I always wanted to do it, but was afraid. And after meeting her, i all of a sudden had realizations about my calling and built confidence.

I did let the TF thing get to my head though, it wasnt my fault in my opinion solely. the signs are rude. lol but yea. it was alot.

I mean to a certain instant, you talking about it and processing it, and thinking through your life and childhood now is inner work.

L journals, does therapy, and yoga. those can help but also be used as a bypass if we arent honest or really facing our stuff.

The work comes with asking the right questions. We ask questions when we are ready for the answers.

Totally,

the twin flame thing is a can of warms i wouldnt suggest opening or worrying about. if someone is your twin flame the answer will come to you. but maybe me mentioning it after you saying mirror was purposeful I dont know. But its a tough journey.

I too have dreams that come true, I am a spiritual mentor and very in touch with my intuition. I had to learn how to decipher between, the different types of dreams. Some are fear based (teach us about our fears and worries), others are fortelling the future, others are from past experiences, others are literally meeting people and their souls (even if it’s not them but the essence of their soul.) etc etc. Each dream gives a different feeling. But in order to meet peoples higher selves which their higher self would be pure love, those dreams shouldn’t feel scary. If we do have unpleasant dreams about people, not that that’s not a true reflection of their energy but it’s not them at their best or higher self. All my opinion… lol

I’m not sure in what way i mean dark, it’s just a heavy feeling i get from her. It could be her literally self harming (which she’s mentioned), it could be a collection of anger, shame, resentment – which is a heavier denser negative energy that I am sensing as dark, it could be her literal situation maybe she’s trapped in her relationship & unsafe, could be addiction. not sure. But the absence of her freedom from any of this- is what I read or feel as dark or heavier. Or dominantly dark. We all have light and dark energy, neither are bad per-say its just in her case, its not balanced.

Totally,

L and I are definitely mirrors. I even got caught up in this Twin Flame idea… that’s a story for a different day lol

I would say the exact same things to L, but when people are not ready to receive certain things, they won’t receive it. For example, when L would tell me she cared about me or liked me, initially I wasnt in a place spiritually, emotionally or physically to receive or believe it. It just rolled off my shoulders.

And it’s never just you. It takes two. Though on the surface I was patient and seemed I had it all together. Internally, I pushed her away too. Ever hear of the law of polarity? It’s never just you. Especially if you feel this person was your mirror, our mirrors reflect us in every way.

It’s part of how I learned to have compassion for L. When I stopped pointing the finger… I was upset because she was running from me. Admittantly running too. lol But when day i had a dream where we met in person and she was like “okay let’s go” and in the dream I actually ran away.. I had realized then, internally I was running. I was running from my responsibilities, my self development, my own trauma. And though I’m pretty mature and have a lot of tools, I wasnt where I needed to be in terms of my own self evolution. If that makes sense. It’s never just you .

I know you feel down about not taking a leap then but this gets into a larger bit about self trust. We have to trust that our lives and purpose unfold in the way that is best for us. If he is meant to be with you, he would be with you. He’s not, and though you love him and he loves you, that just means he’s not for you right now. But someone else is. Again we have many soulmates, not all are our romantic partners, some simply come in our lives to nudge us, wake us up to our true potential.

Also sometimes we fixate on people, like myself, worrying or beating self up about not doing certain things in past, sometimes we go there to distract ourselves from what’s happening in the present time.

With L, honestly, my heart is broken. I want to be with her, but she’s got alot of work to do. She’s dealing with internal battles, of shame and not trusting or choosing herself. She’s also a bit in the dark, and she keeps choosing the dark – which is a form of self harm. I couldnt be around her right now even if I chose to because I am so empathic, not unless she trusted and opened up herself to healing and love.

Thanks, I try. I wasnt always this way. And I did have alot of judgments about her. Internally i was convinced she was the cruelest person. But through self work i realized we are really very similar just at two different places.

I’m a life coach, and for my training, i had hired relationship specialist and coaches -that really helped me through this situation. I knew if i could take the lessons and apply them right, it may not lead to me and L being together, but it would lead to me finding my life partner.

I’ve also had a very hard life and had to grow up really young. In addition to that i started dating in high school. I’ve had a couple partners, many of them were atleast 2 years older than me and wise, they taught me a few things. I’ll respond to the rest when I get back in from my errands. Have a great day! Not sure what time it is there. Im on the west coast so it’s 12:46pm.

Don’t beat yourself up. It’s a learning process. Everybody’s got something to learn and this particular thing is something you are learning. And it will help you later on.

I communicated that to her yes. I also began to over communicate and make assumptions as my frustration increased. I then began to push her away, i think honestly i was acting crazy at times. lol I didnt care how emotional i was i just kind of lost myself. I need to learn my limits and i did, and part of it felt good to act out. and she acted out. and we usually cant do that because of how people see us. but then it just was frustrating again because she wasnt in a place to fully come forward. Shes got a lot to work through, sexuality, her current partnership, family, her job, probably finances, her mental health. that’s going to take some time to heal and resolve.

We all get scared. fear teaches us to educate ourselves. fear dissipates with learning the facts. again, don’t  beat yourself up.

Yes when i am making friends i struggle with feeling like a burden. I have countless memories of meeting up with new friends and hanging out and having fun, but after like 25 minutes I start thinking “arnt they tired of me yet?” “What if they are ready to leave?” “Maybe they are being nice and just wont say they are ready to leave.” Then i do something stupid like ask them “so what time are you heading out?” then they feel pushed away.. and I have to word vomit and explain “no noo, I just feel like a burden at times.” then they cheer me up, and Im a huge puddle on the side walk outside a random ice cream shop.. like get it together Grenada seriously… lmao

Sorry Apple Tree, I should have made this in all one post but, I was forgetting what i wanted to say. lol

I hear you with having struggles making friends. I have a lot of “friends” but we arent really close, I find it hard to let people in. I just know these people through my entertainment jobs, I do comedy and filming on the side.

L, the person I love, also has very few people close to her i think. she doesnt havent many friends. would you say, that not having many friends has also made you hesitate with opening up? like out of fear you wouldnt know how to start a conversation or develop the connection?

Apple Tree,

I live in the U.S. , interracial dating etc happens a lot more often, stuff like that, age gap & Lgbt are more accepted then it was in the past. But I could imagine coming from a conservative family would still make that hard and i think thats the case with her.

I am a LGBT woman and she is also a woman. And she has commented she is straight, yet would come on to me and pursue me heavily. It was frustrated so i left, and she still pursued me. I asked her about it she said “I can’t do anything about my denial.” We did bring out the best and worst parts of eachother, some relationships cause us to grow. In this case, we are both service oriented people who for the most part people see us as having our stuff together. We both have been in newspapers, and are respected by our community. I think we both felt we were pretty developed and kind of had our asses on our shoulders (not towards eachother but individually). Then we met and bam, love, then bam “oh crap i havent healed all my trauma.” and we fought to heal, the inspiration came from wanting to be together, but in order to really be together we’d really have to face our inner issues and that’s scary. we ran from that too. We did work through some things, coached eachother, helped each other heal a little (it was all still distant though). as much as we could online. I know she’s in therapy now, finally.. I am happy about that. i think she was afraid to go. She sent me a snap of her in the office, I could feel her fear. Im just really in tune with her.

But im also giving her space to let the therapy work and her clear her mind.

Apple Tree,

Thank you for your kind words.

Yes, for me being abandoned by my parents at a young age made me try my hardest to be liked in my growing years and adult years. I always dated a certain physical and emotional type. And I got a lot of knocks on my head for it, so I took two years off to myself to explore and learn in hopes I could identify the pattern & heal it. I thought i had chemistry with these past folks, but it was just my addiction to drama.

The person I met at work, was actually completely different. Appearance wise and emotionally. We were alike in many ways & i felt true chemistry for them, something i’ve never felt before. I fought it for a while, ignored it for a while actually. I began to notice they had feelings and attraction to me, but I was distant. Maybe because I was tired of getting hurt by people. They then began to tell me how they felt, and we both had struggles opening up. I was closed off and distant. And they were vulnerable. I was also in the early stages of dating other people (toxic people similar to those from my past), so was too distracted by comfortable dysfunction and patterns didnt really notice this person. Though I felt deeply connected, a deep love for them, i didnt allow myself to feel it. One day however, I came to my senses, and felt a deep powerful love in my heart for them a deep realization of how much i truly wanted to be with them. I didnt know what to do with it, and i definitely felt it was mutual.

We began arguing because of frustration. I also think they were upset because i had pushed them away and was talking to other people when they tried to open up to me which i hadnt known then but is extremely hard for them. If I had known that, and if my heart wasnt so buried in pain I would have responded and recognized it earlier. But I cant beat myself up about it.

Social media i guess seem like a safe ground to communicate for us where we could get past the job, and maybe for them they didnt feel too bad about communicating with me while they still live with their partner. etc. But we’d communicate daily. I knew I was on their mind daily. And we tried so hard to work things out. But they just werent able to step out, or trust me fully, or take a chance.it is and was a difficult situation.

But like you said in your previous post, if we truly love someone then we want them to be happy no matter what.