I can’t relate to that, but I can relate and understand the way you explained the fight or flight response being bottled inside you, and as a reprecussion affected your body. Somehow, arguing and standing up for myself felt like a release, reading what you wrote solidified it . Screams and loud voices, fighting and demeaning words all made me feel anxious, with no release and no way to win or strength to fight back, I became self deprecating and my confidence was at an all time low, this carried on for years, but it never rose to question because I always had sources of happiness to look forward. Only as a teen was I able to really analyze and experience self inquiry, and I was able to change. But besides that, I have questions about anxiety, can it affect how you think, does it necessarily mean you’re afraid of something, and can it be wired in your brain?