Duderino,

A good therapist will help you deal with the sub/unconscious issues of not having a father growing up to give you a male role model.  I take it you did not have a male role model/mentor while growing up?  Uncle, teacher, etc.?  So without one, you became very self-sufficient and not trusting of others and even yourself.  You are in a quandary in finding your life’s direction until now.

You are looking for a perspective in your decision not “answers.”

What is your career path you are choosing?  What made you decide on that one?

Mark