Dear Anita,

Good Morning.  I woke up today with more clarity.  I felt the following:

1) wow one day waking up horrible, the next one okay – feels better

2) feels “bipolar” up and down up and down

3) perhaps I need medication because of these ups and downs…

4) No! these ups and downs are “healing” and feeling and apart of the journey, no need to suppress it with medication, its trauma manifesting itself

5) But…if there’s up and down and up and down – how do I know I am actually moving net forward? and not in circles..?

Have you, Anita, had these sort of thoughts before, back earlier in your journey perhaps? When you would feel enraged and horrible one day, and more calm the next…or that sort of thing.  I wonder if any of the above occurred in your brain as well..