Dear Anita,
Yes, perhaps tell yourself: I am “dreading” yet another appt, but I know I must as it is good for me and preventative care. I know that in time I will muster up the mental energy to proceed. For now, I am okay. I don’t have to push myself too hard.
It is okay and great you do not engage in a lot of practical everyday living. I don’t know all of the details of your personal life, and of course don’t want to assume. But, I do know you have a reasonable, loving, and supportive husband – that likely does take care of a lot of the practicalities. You deserve that. You exert a lot of effort in your healing and maintaining peace with yourself and husband, that is a job in and of itself!!
I do look forward to meeting you, whenever that may be, no rush –and probably our husbands join as well (only after perhaps, as we do deserve our own one-on-one time for at least a moment after all these years!).
The concept of win-win resonates in my head daily, for so many things. Thank you for teaching me this.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 