to add- nothing bad has come from the short amount of time I acted like “those” people, focusing on my inner circle

1) no one criticized me

2) no one shunned me from their world (in fact I have been doing the limitation of who is in my life)

3) there is no omnipresent being that judges this daily and says; scoff CC look at you, so different and selfish now,  It is hard to believe this as the mother voice to me IS that being

If I understand the above, and slowly begin to true believe it, The ROAR will significantly diminish.  As I know, that the largest component of my ROAR right now – is “wanting to be those others” but still being held back by guilt/discomfort from the “omnipresent judger”