@Tim I didn’t have enough time on my break to write a reply to do you justice also. I thought I’d address @Shelbyville first( I hope the day has got lighter Shelby, I’m very worried for you. Seeing you in pain and unable to help much is hard. I hope @Kkasxo see’s as she is probably better than me) as she is in a spiral.

Tim, Ruperts love for you was pure, very few humans can offer that as lovers, very few experience it in any form some angels choose fur instead of wings. So hold onto those memories he will never be replaced but live on in spirit. I know no one can truly understand why dogs are called “man’s best friend” until they have experienced the loss of one. I’m here ro listen or help in anyway I can. You have always been so giving to me and I’d hope to repay you some day.

I will try my best by Shelby and Lucie or anyone else who needs help. I have been inspired by you and I hope that was not a goodbye or our last correspondence. This past week or two I feel the tide turning and I’m growing. I’ll have a sober wake in honour of Rupert. OJs and no bottle. Take care Tim, thinking of you and strongly believe you have the grit to get through this testing time. Sending you a virtual hug too. Thank you for everything so far. I’ll miss you x