Ah yes, I do hope @Shelbyville and @Tim (man to man) also read my progress one day. All played such a huge role in my growth and journey.

@Sammy Funny you should mention Bridgerton, ‘B’ insisted I binge watch it with her over the festive period and I can honestly say their characters reflect us in many ways

‘B’ – kind-hearted deeply loves her family, upholds her values and goes out of her way to help others but is not afraid to put across her thoughts.

Me – witty, tall, devilishly handsome and pretty sure I could teach her and my pull out game would be just as strong if given the chance ahaha. I’m half joking but I related to his demons that haunted him. How he thought Daphne deserved better but deep down it was always her. Their love grew from friendship and they didn’t have an instant romantic attraction very much like ‘B’ and me.

Caught myself saying ‘I burn for you!’ to ‘B’ just to tease her, and I doooo! But all in good time. Honestly the intimacy has increased ten folds by waiting, I’m cherishing it all.

Apparently since getting engaged I’ve turned into a soppy mess and don’t shut up about us. I guess I’m really happy.

I think you and @Kkasxo are so wise. You really understand the implications of inserting yourself in someone elses life before having done the work or healed. If I could rewind time I wish I’d processed and got to a better space mentally perhaps I would have not caused pain. Hurt people really do hurt people.

I think if after that many years a guy failed to value you, he will always revert back to those bad habits. So starting afresh is something you deserve.

I just think don’t sell up to erase memories of him, it is your home. Learning to accept and become indifferent is healthier than just cutting something away. Because if he is still living rent free in your mind no matter where you go he will follow.

Just sit with the feeling and see if it feels naturally right direction and something you will not regret later.

You’re doing extremely well, so pace yourself and I’m here mate!