Dear TeaK,

Yes, that’s correct. The sermons and audiobooks, especially those with comforting voice, gives me inner peace and calms me. Maybe, since I never had a father figure in my life, I look to these for guidance and knowledge.

I have mixed feelings at the moment. At one moment, I feel there is hope and I can heal myself and relieve the pain. But the very next moment, everything looks grim and literally the end of the road. Will the pain ever go away? or will it get worse? I don’t have any strength left, I feel like a “lost” case.