But it didn’t help you with your second biggest problem, which is having a loving relationship

It did, i don’t care anymore about that.

It is counter-productive for developing a deeper bond with people

No it isn’t, my apathy has no reason to be blamed for that, its them, i tried so hard with a friend of mine to have a strong relationship, i try so hard with my little sister, but she just don’t care, she just don’t want that, my friend stopped talking to me because i didn’t like how superficial our relationship is, how is my philosophy, my apathy, in the way?

So you would need to understand that what protected you from shame and guilt won’t get you the love you crave

Can you explain why? I still feel so proud that i developed apathy and this philosophy, it still very much needed.

you are trying to reduce your craving and numb yourself, but the desire for connection is still there, and it’s a natural desire, so don’t suppress it)

Oh Yes, so i can be so desperate and go online for connection, and then logically getting out with less connection and more feeling like a castaway, no thank you.

Your “cure” has its limitations and its very bad side-effects

What do you suggest? if my illness is apathy, how can i fix it  when if i try i have to care, there is no reason to do anything, its all bullshit, i first need evidence, a proof that its worth it, that life is good, and i should do something about it, first provide that

A proper cure for your problems, that will eventually help you have satisfying relationships as well. Because with your current approach, you won’t be able to have them.

Yes, because my apathy is the only reason why i don’t have relationship, not the ignorant people around me, i would think you are suggesting moveing, well guess what, no reward can make me accept being a slave, going to a work i don’t like, wasting my time, accepting society ideas and follow them, even if i want to have a relationship, i have to follow a certain rules, dating and stuff, saying certain things, no

I perfer to choose my own suffering, i perfer to foucs my energy and time on something i control, myself, not other brainwashed people, get them to like me, act in a certain way, to be accepted

You over and over suggest therapy, like its the ultimate cure, therapy only works for people who want to change, want to be helped, i don’t.