“Do you see the commonalities here: slander, humiliation and even the feeling that someone wants you dead?”

I guess so.

“So for me, I cannot not notice the similarities to your childhood. It’s like your childhood experience being repeated again. Have you thought about it before?”

I guess it is much more painful now as I’m not a kid and so I’m well aware of the human behavior and just how much it can hurt.

My question is, why? Did I actually do something monstrous to deserve all of this? If I did, then why wasn’t it explained to me? Is there even anything which could justify such behavior to begin with? Are all the wonderful experiences of the past and all I have contributed to those two, just nothing at all now, as if it none of it ever happened?

There’s still so much dissonance in me.