Hi anita

I am not sure if this is how it should be but here it is:

I wake up and still feel groggy. Brush my teeth and check my work messages. If there is a message I need to respond to, I keep rehearsing what the answer should be. If it is a low risk message and shoot an answer really quick. There is an impulse to reply. I turn my laptop on and constantly look for any messages I may get. I am bored. But at the same time, feeling tensed or irritated at the thought of having to attend a meeting that happens daily. If someone tells me there’s an issue, I am already scared it may be horrible. I am reminded of an upcoming deadline or milestone and get nervous at it failing and how I should deal with. I walk around the house, and ask my mom if she needs help with anything. I do what she needs but I feel physically unable to find energy to do anything. I push things for work to the next day, but dread the consequences. I eventually will get to it because the fear of being reprimanded pushes me to action. I am sick of constantly feeling scared and acting out of fear.

Girija