I agree about your thoughts on Mamata

And about CEN I took a test and it says I have some mild signs of that. That’s why. It’s not fully diagnosed by therapist but because of most of the symptoms were related that’s why I said. Like Low self esteem, shunning emotional closeness or intimacy, Mild ADHD (hyperactivity). Etc

I wouldn’t say they fulfilled my emotional needs 100%. Maybe my mother tried but my father didn’t. I used to be scared of him when I was little but scared not for abuse or anything. Just his anger when I’d do something wrong. It was different from my mother side if I do something wrong she’d tell me it’s wrong to do that and also explain why it’s wrong. Even now If I have to spend an hour alone with my father it doesn’t feel that much comfortable but I can spend whole day with my mother. But I try to tell myself it’s okay to have different views and I don’t have to be like him. We all are different. I respect him as he is. But I’m also sure I’m not craving validation from any of my parents. Childhood is past and I’m just trying to be better in the present