Dear Addy:

“Just today I’ve tried to empathize my friend, but the thing was that her stupidity made me little grumpy“- your effort to empathize with her drastically failed when you judged her to be stupid.

“And for work I had to speak in Indirect way to one of the colleague, ‘like yeah it’s not like I told you to do it 3 days before. Obviously, you have other important stuff to do’“- you were indirectly but clearly rude to this poor colleague of yours. I feel sorry for her and for any other work colleague unfortunate enough to receive your abuse.

“But after that I felt like I did hurt her in some way. I don’t know why attacking like that is a reflex for me“- angry and judgmental Addy Attacks people.

“I know how to light up the environment around me. Or at least sometimes“- sadly, at other times, you darken the environment around you.

“I don’t know why attacking like that is a reflex for me… it’s also true that I shun emotional closeness and I’m not sure why… I have to ask myself like what is it that I’m fearing?…  I thought about both of these things, but nothing is comping up from inside“- in our long communication I suggested reasons and explanations.. but none was considered by you, none received, and you remain clueless. I highly recommend that you seek quality, professional therapy. I hope that you get to the root of your anger, resolve it, and no longer reflexively attack people at work and elsewhere.

anita