Ola Tee,

I am having another not so good period health-wise, so I am not too cheerful. But holding on, keeping hope that it’s going to get better eventually…

Oh I see but I’m glad you’re keeping up the hope. I also hope you’ll be better

True, I was told that Spanish and Italian are sort of similar. Don’t know about French – everyone says it’s pretty hard….

Haha yeah French is not that much similar or say least similar in romance languages, also tongue twisting a lot. But Spanish, Italian and Portuguese are very similar to each other.

For a guy who watched a lioness give birth… no wonder that cities are boring

Well even in the big cities I prefer outside areas not center areas just for near to wild and some more peaceful and farther from city noise.

Great! So at least intellectually you know you’re free to make your own decisions and no one is forcing you to tie the knot.

Yes I know that so I just have to stop fearing about it

Haha… I don’t even think it’s possible with cats – they are great individualists and pretty sneaky  But you can be a father figure to that boy from the neighborhood, whom you were teaching how to ride a bike.

Haha I agree with you on cats. And yes I do spend time with him but less since he’s spending more time indoors.

I get it… that’s great that you’re in touch with your inner child! When you were a child, did you feel judged by your parents for being spontaneous and a little silly? Did they often tell you to “behave”?

Hmm they never had to tell me to “behave” because I was very observant. And grandfather used to talk about other kids of my age how much they have “accomplished” and well behaved they are. So without much thought I was like okay as a kid this age I have to be well behaved and not do many silly things like other kids doing who aren’t much “accomplished”

Can you give me an example? What in your life should be your way and you wouldn’t agree to any kind of compromise?

That’s not an easy question to answer but I’ll try

Hmm I think my freedom and ability to do whatever I want. Because like in relationship I care too much and even if they’re little careless about their health or things that affect them or make them worry it makes me worry 3x times more and I can’t focus on my things.

After that I noticed that in relationships I just loose myself in the process because over caring and overthinking about partner. And it affects my mood and even the sleep so…

Back to the freedom part like I said If I even notice even a little that what I suggested made them uncomfortable I wouldn’t hesitate to change my plans just to see them not disappointed.

Also ability to go wherever I go. It’s like a parent would be like don’t go to hike there it’s dangerous out there and then even after she said no and I’d go I feel guilty.

But I had two different partners who were very accepting yet still I was worried about all these things.