Dear Paradoxy:

“She (B) always reads the bible and prays almost everyday. I don’t think she would go against the bible’s rules… I am pretty sure B would have slept with her manager to keep her job“-paradoxical: sexually promiscuous on one hand, always reading the bible on the other; would sleep with her manager on one hand, would not go against the bible’s rules, on the other.

“One of my friends told me that he could feel the negative energy radiating off me, and I ranted to him about what she(B) did…  So am I the problem?… combined with my Dark Energy influence, being the source of pain to others became the core belief of my existence. God’s failed experiment, I call myself. Ironically my real name is Godwin but in reality I am a loser.“- it breaks my heart to read this.

Dear Godwin: I have no doubt that there was nothing wrong with you when you were born, in the very beginning of your life, you were not the problem, there was no dark energy in you.  You were not god’s failed experiment. You started feeling this way and continued to feel this way as a reaction to a series of happenings in your very young life and onward. And indeed, from one point on, like your friend observed (and I as well, reading your posts), you do often radiate negative energy.

I hope that you no longer find some comfort or pleasure in this dark energy, so that you will be motivated to exorcise it, so to speak, and replace it with the light you were born to radiate to the world!

anita