Hi SereneWolf,

just a quick, though provocative question (sorry about that) for now. I’ll reply to the rest of your post later:

There was physical and even some romantic attraction but I didn’t continue with her because of my fear. Like if something good like this would end, I’d feel so much hurt so I didn’t let her too close to my heart

What if during my journey I meet someone who is really able to touch my heart and able to break down the walls in my heart?

So the doctor didn’t touch your heart? Or she did, but she wasn’t able to break down the walls in your heart?

You see – it’s not about the woman. It’s about you. If you fear (either intimacy, or losing something good and hurting afterwards), then you will keep those walls up, even if it’s the best thing that ever happened to you.

If fear prevails, no woman will be able to break down the walls of your heart. The person who needs to do it is you.