Dear anita,

Not that I recommend drinking alcohol

I don’t touch alcohol much, because it will make the brain fog side effect, of my duty of care medication, even stronger. There is a warning sticker on my medication that talks about being cautious when operating machinery. I drive a forklift every day at work. I know how strong the fog is because the couple of times I missed a dose, I had a minor headache but my thoughts were much clearer and stronger than normal. I feel like I am being chemically restrained from fully engaging in life, by a society that is fearful of the effects of my brain damage. Even if I change to another similar drug, my drivers license would be taken away until the docs thought I was “safe”, which could end up being never.
After my BC surgery, my medical team was legally supposed to have had my license suspended. Fortunately for me, they knew how hard it would be to get it back. So they trusted me not to drive, and didn’t notify the transport department.  Something I am really thankful for. My current GP said that it was a massive breach of duty of care on their part, and they shouldn’t have done it.

When I heard the PT, I almost panicked, as in: what if I will always hear that?

I got over that feeling when I started regularly diaphragmatic breathing, Its sort of like floaters in your eyes, you look through them 99% of the time. Now I only notice my mild PT when things are quiet, and I write it off to ‘just another brain damage side effect’

Daoist saying: ‘When you are ‘sick’, do not seek a cure. Find your centre..  and you will be healed.“

Finding my centre is how I have got myself 4 years ahead of the BC reoccurance curve.

I noticed that my attention and learning abilities improve when I tap into the BHC-Energy.

I visualise BHC like a universe wide cosmic 5th dimension that we are all connected to, like the force in starwars. Also known as the Unified Field at the fringes of scientific understanding.
“Unified Field and the Quantum Field are seen as a way to connect with the underlying oneness of the universe. Practitioners may visualize these fields as vast, interconnected webs of energy that underlie all physical reality.”
Supposedly animals tap into this directly, humans used to be able to (third eye/pineal gland/intuition) but we’ve pretty much lost it due to becoming obsessed with technology and ‘stuff’.

Our chats have helped me to ground myself. Helped me gather my thoughts for my next therapist session.

Klast