Yeah i think so too, because the last week i am getting a more distant/tired vibe from her, like i said yesterday, so my mind might be preparing me for abandonment..

Am i though? I have no clue anymore.. i remember going to rides/trips with the motorcycle thinking about her being on my pillion seat, me recording videos to post for her.. that would make me feel so good, that i have a special someone to share those things with, now nothing touches me anymore.. 🙁