Here we go….

As I couldn’t handle the internal conflict; Day before yesterday I told him that I like him more than a friend.

His reply was I had understood it already…I asked him if she shares the same, and the answer was No. He said…’I’m not into it’. It was an embarrassing moment; I ended the conversation soon after knowing his answer.

Later, he messaged saying ‘I’m sorry but I’m not this, hope you’ll understand’. I said I respect your thoughts and decisions.

Yesterday we were traveling (group of friends) to attend a friend’s wedding and he was being extra-caring. I don’t know what this is…May be he is trying to be polite and don’t want me to be hurt.

It’s just a hard time to cope with my feelings for him. I go into shell after returning from office and feel better. I prefer to avoid seeing him to come out of this. He has no idea what I feel for him and how difficult to overcome this.

I can see that he does have a heart, because he cares for me but how can one be so strong minded to follow/marry someone your parents choose. It’s a lifetime decision!

Anyways, I prefer to shut my mind, be strong and move on. No point in pondering over why he did this and that. If he has something for me and courage to proceed, he will come and confess, else….he’s just a good friend!

Thank you for reading this post..:-)