Dear anita,

it’s true. We cannot do so much about these problems, so it’s good to let it go. The only thing we can do is vote for reasonable people and maybe try our best to live environmentally conscious (I am still not there yet myself). But otherwise, better to not worry so much about these topics!

Yesterday I wrote down my tasks in my planner. Today was so-so. I still get distracted too much. But at least I came up with the composition for an illustration and started a new collage. And I did yoga and cooked a healthy meal.

Now I will journal and plan for tomorrow to get more clarity.

Thank you for wishing me a good night, I slept well. Hopefully, your nights are also good, as well as your days!

Dear anita,

today I went to work and eerything was o.K. Now I will be able to work more again, which is good for financial reasons and for structure. But also a bit bad for having less time for uni. But I have not accomplished as much as I wanted anyways. Too often I still waste time! I wonder if I made any pogress when it comes to being disciplined? The person I would like to be is more active. But at least I try to do a little. I am finishing several illustrations in a months, some days I do yoga or go for walks… And I have finished some longer projects as well. This shows that I am able to work on bigger projects, even if it takes me long.

Oh well. Tomorrow I will work on my illustrations again. But I also decided that I will go outside into nature this weekend.

Thank you for your well wishes!

Dear anita,

thank you for your feedback! It’s just that on some of those days I did not get anything done. I would like to be more productive. But I think I have learned some important lessons. Firstly, I know better who I am and what I want. And I think I am on the right path and that I have chosen a career that does suit me. And I have beome more confident in myself, no longer having the belief that it is impossible for me to be succesful (not on all days, but I’m getting better).

But what I want is to constantly work on my projects, so that I feel satisfied with myself. I want to take myself more seriously.

Today went better. In the morning it started  off slowly. But I read a good book, so not too bad. Then I cooked some food and later I worked on my uni projects. In the evening, I decided to go out for a walk. Overall I think it was a pretty good and wholesome day. I am more satisfied with myself.

Tomorrow I want to continue with the illustration I started today, but maybe also spend some time in nature.

Hope you are having a good Saturday so far!

Dear anita,

sometimes it’s nice to spend some time offline! I hope you had a good time out of town!

Yes, I do think illustration is for me. Even in my childhood I was always drawing, sometimes together with my sister. Sometimes I made up stories while drawing… And I would like to tell stories, maybe one day make my own comic book. And if I will not be comercially successful, I still want to draw and express myself.

Today went well. In the morning I went to a doctor and then I walked a bit on my way home. It was a nice day today, like real summer. And people were sitting at cafés, everybody wore summer outfits, it was a bit of normalcy.

Later I worked on one of my projects and tomorrow I will turn the sketch into a drawing. Also, tomorrow will be the day to finally make my rhubarb cheesecake!

Dear anita,

the website you looked at seems to have a lot of good tips! I have to look at it more closely later.

I think I understand what you mean about routines. It’s refreshing to do something different once in a while. The routine can give safety, but too much routine can feel stale. And we also change during our lives, so to adjust the routine from time to time will be helpful!

Hopefully, you had a nice hike! It seems like good wheather for it!

Today I woke up very early, so I decided to go for a run. Only for 5 minutes, then I took a break, 4×5. It was 5 am and I really like it when it is so quiet and not many people are around. There was a meadow that was covered in white fog, it looked very beautiful. My feet got soaked from the morning dew. Later, when I walked back I also picked some flowers, buttercups, marguerites and pink clover. This combination of colors is very beautiful – pink, yellow and white. After this morning walk I felt very good and happy. Definitely I should do this more often!

When I was at home, I was a little tired and read for a bit. But then I started my illustration. Then, after dinner, it was time to make the rhubarb cake. It still has to cool off, but it looks good and I tasted a warm piece and I think it is good.

Then I drew some more, but now I am unsure how to continue with my illustration. Maybe now I will work on something else, perhaps my collage.

Tomorrow is my work day, but hopefully after it I can draw more.

Have a good day and night! Until tomorrow!

Dear anita,

today it was more chaotic at work. At some times I felt like I handled everything competently, at other times it didn’t go so well.

After work I painted for 2 hours. Maybe I should also draw now or maybe read.

Tomorrow I want to spend some time in nature, but also work on my uni stuff.

Thank you and have a restul night too!

Dear anita,

spending time in nature is always refreshing. How nice that you enjoyed your walk.

In the morning I also went outside for a walk at the river. It was nice, but a bit windy by the water. I wished to have taken a jacket with me. Anyways it was a good start of the day. And I aleady came back by 10. In the future I should always start my days like that. Waking up at 5 and going out for a walk or running.

Then I was drawing for about two hours until I made lunch. After that I became more distracted again. Even though I started to work on my tasks, I did not accomplish much and now I feel a bit frustrated with myself and grumpy. But oh well…

Tomorrow I will go to work and I want to find time for my studies after that at least for a bit.

Until then!