May 19, 2021 at 1:12 pm #380093
Accountable! I will let you know by Sunday about my Trader Joe’s experience. Regarding it being easier during quarantine, I read from other members last year that their lives were easier during quarantine. Reasons: (1) for many, less interactions with people= less stress, and (2) when in quarantine, nothing much happens that is unpredictable, less unpredictability= less stress.
May 20, 2021 at 1:02 pm #380129
- This reply was modified 4 months, 1 week ago by anita.
it makes sense what you said about stress. Actually, I felt stressed even though compared to others my life is not that stressful. Maybe work sometimes stresses me and maybe I stress myself out for not accomplishing enough. Maybe it is also because of having more options and not enough clarity about what to do next.
After a walk today I was feeling much better. It helped me to calm down and I got new ideas. After that I spent the rest of the day drawing and I could still draw more now. Even though I am going slowly, I still think I am on the right path. I do have enough ideas and I like my drawings. And when I am really in the flow like today, I am feeling passionate and like I want to do so much more. Maybe looking at my favorite illustrators and listening to podcasts helped reignite that fire. Sometimes I had lost it.
But today I am feeling good. Listening to music and drawing and going for a walk, it was a good day.
Tomorrow is my work day again. But after work I want to draw more.
Have a good day!May 20, 2021 at 2:47 pm #380138
Accountable! You wrote: “I felt stress even though compared to others my life is not that stressful”- I have a neighbor whose life is luxurious, living in a beautiful house, having more money than she will ever be able to use, but she had a anxiety provoking childhood, and decades later, she stays up at night anxious.
I learned that for many, it is not the life we currently have that is responsible for our level of stress, but the life we had as children that started our brain-body neural/ biochemical habits, habits that still maintain our experience of being overly stressed way into adulthood.
I am glad to read that today was a good day for you, and I wish you a good dat at work tomorrow, good night, Lily!
anitaMay 21, 2021 at 11:35 am #380175
you are right. The childhood experience leaves a big imprint on people!
At the moment I can’t focus very well and find the best words to respond. Everything I want to write sounds like platitudes… After my workday I am feeling tired. But it went well today, no big mistakes and I felt quite competent most of the time.
But I understand what you are saying and thank you!May 21, 2021 at 11:57 am #380178
Accountable! I am glad to read that your workday went well and that you felt quite competent most of the time. You are welcome, and I am okay when you can’t focus very well and find the best words. As far as I am concerned, your recent words are the best: honest, straightforward and as always, kind. Good night, Lily!
anitaMay 22, 2021 at 1:20 pm #380275
honest and kind are two things I really aspire to be!
Today I feel like I accomplished not so much. In the morning I started a drawing and then I cleaned our flat. Then I wanted to draw more, but my roommate said we were out of some household items and suggested we can go grocery shopping together. It kind of distracted me a bit. Waiting and such, I would have preferred to buy the things alone. Or maybe it bothers me that it was so spontaneous and I got off track with my plans. I should pause and think before saying yes next time. It would be nice to do things together, but not so spontaneously.
Tomorrow I really have to work on project D again.May 22, 2021 at 1:33 pm #380277
Accountable! Honest and kind is what you really aspire to be— well, you accomplished it for life: honest and kind is how you are!
When your roommate suggested you go grocery shopping together, and you did, this spontaneous disruption to your day got you off track- this indicates to me how important routine and predictability is to you (as it is to me)!
anitaMay 23, 2021 at 10:43 am #380300
thanks for the compliment! I try my best!
It is true, I am not very much into spontaneous things. For me it’s better to know a few days before meeting somone etc. Somehow I became a bit confused yesterday.
Today went pretty well. I have finished one page of a booklet for project D and I want to draw more. Also, I tried out a new recipe: lentils and rice, called mujadara. It was good, especially with a yoghurt-cucumber dip. And for the next days I won’t have to cook.
Tomorrow I want to work more on project D, but also go outside or do yoga because I did not exercise at all during the last days!
Hope your weekend went well 🙂May 23, 2021 at 11:25 am #380304
Accountable! And you are welcome. Guess what: this afternoon I will be mask-less at Trader Joe’s. I will tell you about it tomorrow. Good night, Lily!May 24, 2021 at 12:47 pm #380356
how did your visit at Trader Joe’s go?
In the morning I took a walk outside today. It was finally very nice weather with sunshine and a blue sky. I sat at a bench and journaled. On my way back I got a piece of strawberry cake from the bakery and it was very delicous. It reminds me that I still have to bake the rhubarb cake this week!
Then I drew a bit for project D, but later switched to a personal project. It was more fun and I enjoyed drawing just for my own pleasure, without having exams or professors in mind. Sometimes I had lost that, but recently I am finding my joy of drawing again.
Still, I have to make a better plan or something, else I will never finish my studies. For tomorrow I set the goal of finishing the collage for project D I started.
May 24, 2021 at 12:55 pm #380358
- This reply was modified 4 months ago by Lily.
Accountable! Strawberry cake is delicious!!! At Trader Joe’s- it was not the freeing experience I thought it would be because everyone was wearing masks and I was the odd one. After the first visit there I went back to get a few more items and wore a mask on the second visit. I figured even those who are fully vaccinated feel safer still wearing a mask, so better that I help them feel safer by still wearing a mask. Good night, Lily!
anitaMay 25, 2021 at 12:46 pm #380428
sorry that it was not quite as you expected! I can understand that it was a bit odd being the only one without a mask. But it was very considerate of you to still put on your mask to make everyone feel safe! Hope you felt better then and still had an enjoyable experience!
Today I was overall productive. In the morning I did yoga and drew in my art journal. Then I started working on a collage and have also finished it today. In the breaks I danced a bit, did my laundry and cleaned, hoovered and mopped my room.
Tomorrow I want to start a new collage or maybe draw in my other booklet.
May 25, 2021 at 1:57 pm #380435
- This reply was modified 4 months ago by Lily.
Accountable! When I put the mask on during the second visit, there were two customers without masks, I wonder if they felt weird. In any case, it takes time to change, but now I can see it- that in the future, things will return to normal, (if normal is still available in the future, I hope it is). Congrats on finishing the collage. Good night Lily!
anitaMay 26, 2021 at 1:10 pm #380476
yes we will have to get accustomed again to a life without masks and restrictions! Hopefully things will become more normal again. After all, there have been pandemics in the past and humans found cures. I feel more worried about climate change and extremist world leaders in power…
Here things recently got a bit more normal again. Shops opened for the first time again since December (except for a week or so of click and meet). Today I went to buy art supplies, but you were supposed to write your contact information down and I never know my phone number… Will have to try again!
Otherwise I was not as productive as I would like. It works better on days when I write down specific tasks in my planner, like yesterday. Wanting to write them in the morning doesn’t work for me. So I will better write them down now.
Hope your day went well! Until tomorrow!May 26, 2021 at 1:28 pm #380477
Accountable! I hope you wrote down specific tasks in your planner for tomorrow. You make a very good point, about climate change and extremist world leaders in power being a serious concern. I worry about the same, very much so. But I say to myself, every once in a while: is there anything I can do about it? And if there isn’t, I try to let it go.. but these worries do increase my level of anxiety overall. I hope you have a good night, dreaming, maybe about healing for our world and a better tomorrow.