Dear Beni:

It’s so wonderful to read back from you so soon following my post! 😊 Your message brought a big smile to my face. I’m really glad that my words made you feel supported and cared for. Your childlike joy is contagious, and I’m cheering you on every step of the way.

Thank you for the big hug! Your openness and honesty make our conversations special. Keep being your amazing self!

Sending you a warm virtual hug back! 🤗

anita

Dear beni:

In your recent two posts, you highlight the challenge of staying connected to your emotions (heart) rather than retreating into your thoughts (head), so to avoid pain. You acknowledge that integration involves merging different parts of yourself, which initially feels like becoming someone else, but gradually leads to a sense of wholeness.

You expressed a lack of real-life support and shared your desire for a supportive family or community, expressing a willingness to move for such a connection but also recognizing your need to face some challenges alone. You feel grief and exhaustion from chasing dreams.
You acknowledge that both trauma and choice shape your reality, and you emphasize the importance of taking small steps in this process

Thank you, beni, for sharing your thoughts on integration and affirmation. It’s inspiring to see your dedication to staying connected with your emotions and facing the pain rather than retreating into your thoughts. Integration is indeed a challenging process, but it’s clear that you’re making progress, even if it’s through tiny baby steps.

Recognizing that you hold the power to affirm yourself is a significant realization. Keep taking those small steps and being gentle with yourself as you navigate this journey. You’re doing great, and your efforts will continue to bring you closer to a sense of wholeness.

Also, it’s wonderful that you have a psychologist who understands spirituality to support you. I can relate to the challenges of finding someone in real life who truly has the space and interest in your journey. The combination of trauma, choice, and luck in shaping our lives can be overwhelming, but being aware of these factors is a powerful insight.

Your desire for connection and the grief you feel about chasing dreams resonate deeply. It’s okay to feel tired and to acknowledge the need for both external support and internal growth. Remember that you’re not alone in this journey, even when you feel that you are alone.

Sending you strength and understanding,

anita

M e R r Y C h R i S t M a S, B e N i 🎄🎅 ✨❄️ 🎁 😊 !

anita

One more thing: I wish you a year of authenticity and courage. And one more thing:thank you for being a part of this community and for sharing your experiences. Your willingness to grow and engage is truly appreciated.

anita