Hello everyone,

I am in a peculiar situation. I found the girl of my dreams. She is 20 and I am 21, and for the past 6 months we have spent every single possible moment together laughing, loving, and becoming absolutely infatuated with one another. We would go to school during the day and run to one another as quickly as possible to spend all night talking about our ideas, our goals, and how perfect we are for each other. Both of us have  never met someone so perfect for ourselves, and we do not fight or belittle one another. I feel like I found the person I want to spend my life with, and she feels the same way.

However, recently I have been feeling an anxiety that is making me act differently. I am constantly feeling like I am going to lose her at some point, and I cannot stop thinking about how awful and heartbroken I will be. I think about her with other men having sex in the future, and how free she will someday feel while I am withering in pain all alone. I have absolutely no logical reason to believe that this is true given how amazing things have been going, but these feelings make me nervous around her because i do not want this to happen, which in turn makes me act differently around her and makes the fear that she will leave me even stronger. She gives me strong reassurance sometimes out of nowhere in the form of saying things like “you’re amazing babe” or “I love you” or “I want to have your kids”, but pretty shortly after I go back to worrying about losing her. I do not know what to do, because I do not want to blow this amazing opportunity. I just want to go back to feeling the way I did for the first 95% of our relationship: I felt worry free and completely capable of being my full, loving self. I never felt uncomfortable or like I was not good enough for her (she is absolutely gorgeous and it is easy to feel like she’s too good for me). Please help, this is very painful :/.