Your thinking is clear and rational: you weighed the pros and cons to staying with your parents vs living in a group home, and you concluded that it is safer and wiser for you to stay with your parents. You are not interested in taking the risks involved in leaving your parents’ home at this time in your life.
“If I actually have some illness who will pay for it? I have no job“- in the U.S. and in many other countries there are government assistance programs, including free of charge health care, and monthly income to people deemed disabled. These programs make it possible for disabled people who wish to live independently of their parents, to be able to do so. I am guessing that such programs do not exist in the country where you are living…?
Good to read back from you! I am fine, thank you. I suggested earlier that you watch or listen to mindfulness meditations videos or audios (your choice), which are available online free of charge. I suggest that you watch/listen to one every morning and every evening, before going to sleep. In addition, I suggest that you plan nutritional, lower calorie meals and daily physical exercise so to safely lose weight and get in a good physical shape.