Where do I start? Separation and feelings of not being accepted by my first cousins have been brewing for a while now. My 16yr old twin cousins are the ones I have been having problems with. I recently turned 20 this month and during my younger years I felt as though they admired and appreciated me. Once they became teenagers I feel that it all changed. Knit-picking, attacks of character, insults covered with sarcasm and complete critism have been the problems. They are very negative and always try to find the bad in whatever I’m doing. Sometimes I feel like they watch my every move to find a flaw. Just this past weekend was a huge blow out with one of the twins…lets call her twin 1 but of course it soon became an argument with both, with the other twin coming to her sisters’ defense. earlier that day we were all at my grandmothers house I was getting ready to go sight-seeing with my older cousin and his girlfriend. I saw that my twin cousin was getting ready also so I asked her if she was coming with us. She replied “No , I’m going out with my friend Marcus you know the one who doesn’t like you.” Feeling fed up with the constant petty remarks I raised my voice at her. I replied “Ok, well he’s stupid he doesn’t even know me. I haven’t even had a conversation with him.” Cousin:” Yes you have remember that one time we were in the basement.”(which was over a year ago!) Me: ” I don’t even remember that and he’s still stupid but I don’t even care…I don’t know him.” Cousin: “Well why you getting mad if you don’t care.” Me: Because you’re instigating, who cares if he doesn’t like me that was a petty thing to even say, I get sick of your negativity. Cousin storms off and replies “Like I care.” That is just one of MANY examples. Other insults recently have been that I’m annoying, No one likes me, I’m spoiled, I have no curves or shape, I have abs and abs make women look manly, so I assume she’s saying that If I cont. to work out I will look manly.(even though I have a very slim and lean body type FAR from muscular) I feel very unappreciated, hurt, unloved, and disrespected. I am worried that I will feel resentment towards them. I feel anger to that point that I even think about putting hands or spitting on her. These thoughts scare me. I need peace within myself with no resentment. I just want them to love me.