Do you ever feel like there’s just too much that you want and NEED to do that you get lost within yourself?

For at least the last decade, I’ve been trying to do everything to better myself, and to help improve those around me. The problem is, the people around me want to improve themselves as well (which is why i’ve taken it upon myself to get things started) but unless everything is mapped out step by step, they can’t manage it.

This has me feeling lost.

I work at least 80 hours a week, every week. I have so many things I need to get started and going, and they all tie into one another, so it’s overwhelming trying to find which to study/iron out first.. and instead I sit awake after work, trying to iron some sort of an idea out so I can start helping myself, and my loved ones. How do you handle these things? Also, any targeted support forums for some of the list below would be amazing. I’ll asterisk the ones I’ve had the worst time trying to find forums and support on as well. I feel like I’m failing everything because I’m unable to get things sorted.

Time organization (obviously need this one, since I’m unable to get anything else done).

*REAL FOOD eating daily for myself, and family (family being extremely picky with junkfood-like palettes). We have cancer fighters, survivors, health issues (High blood pressure, liver, PCOS, immune system issues, etc in the family. I’d really like to get everyone off sugars and processed foods).

Fuller plot gardening – I garden every year, but have a large yard that I’d like to utilize more. I need to iron out things like dates to plant seeds for starters, and how to slide those dates if the forecast for the next few months is skewed from the usual.

Debt relief
*Exercise
*Juicing
*Space organizing
Anxiety support/additional ways of handling
Self love/acceptance
Spiritual growth
Self growth
Journaling

Every item has different reasons. In researching, it’s come up time and time again that journaling is great for anxiety and I have someone who has big anxiety issues and panic attacks but does not want to express their feelings to anyone (therapist or otherwise) hoping to find ways to start them on a journaling journey. Space organizing – there’s no room in a few of the houses. Most of this is due to terrible room planning within the homes, some is due to the organization situation just not working for the stuff that’s in the house. Juicing/real food is for the health issues, debt relief is for the stress and to help everyone to afford more things they need on a day to day basis. Self love is kind of a big one. I doubt myself on everything, and I’m positive that has something to do with me continuing to not start any of this, but to continually push it to the back while i research more and more, thinking i’ll just fail and why waste the efforts unless it’s going to help someone.

I apologize for the rant, and likely the bouncey way this has been written. It’s 4am, I’m still working and haven’t slept in a day and a half. I’m just feeling lost and drowned. I’m a little anxiety ridden right now, and i’m stressing (which prompted the post to start with). Hopefully this jumbled mess is understandable to someone.

Thank you for reading! <3
Peace, love, and positive vibes.