My partner and I have spent a fantastic first year together. He is my best friend. We share cars, apartments, and all around do life together. Recently, I blacked out from drinking and got angry with him. I called him names like idiot and loser, told him I hated him, and even said he made me want to hurt myself. None of which is true or connected to thoughts I had prior that evening. I was just angry. I woke up running to him to apologize but I couldn’t find him. After much search, his brother told me that he had gone home to his parents house and turned his phone off. He told me that maybe my boyfriend would talk to me the next day.

I know I was wrong with my excessive drinking and hateful language. All I wanted to do was say sorry to him, but he wouldn’t let me. He went 48 hours before contacting me. We both cried and exchanged apologies for our actions, and decided we should work on our relationship and be together. He says he is over it, I can even tell in the way he is acting that he has moved on. But I am completely heartbroken. I feel abused by his absence. I feel as though he was punishing me. And I am so, so sad.

How can I begin to move on from this? What can we do to improve our relationship? I really want things to work out with us.