Ive tried reading the bible many times, partly because i was convinced one of the Abrahamic religions was the right path. But i really think that some of the stories have traumatised me and the God they present at times seems impossible to please, overly critical, or abusive.

Im wondering if its reasonable to put these difficulties down to changes that have happened over time, or translation difficulties? But though that may be the case, how does one heal from trauma caused by being exposed to them?

I feel as if my perception of God has been distorted. I feel that theres too much violence in scriptures. Of course, it hasnt just been reading them thats led to difficulties in my spiritual life; my own life experiences have also contributed to this difficulty. Maybe i was introduced to them too soon?

I note that people seem to be separated into righteous and wicked categories, and i think that one particular problem is that if youre angry (or other difficult emotions) somehow you are failing at righteousness.