Peaceful warrior-

It’s nice to know there’s someone (I’m sure a lot more than just 1 someone) who is going through something similar to me. I hope whatever you’re going through goes smoothly and that you find peace in whatever it is.

Thank you for sharing your ideas. So far, the move is going well. I have been alone for a couple of  days now, and I haven’t started school yet. My time has been spent trying to keep myself as busy as possible with my to do list and things like yoga and reading and walking my dog, while still allowing myself the time and space to feel whatever comes up. Usually a little bit (or a lot) of loneliness and sadness, if I’m being honest. But also peace, usually in the morning, with fresh air and coffee and my journal.

It’s funny that you said ‘view this experience as practice’. I was just thinking today that this is a learning experience for me, beyond the structured learning I will do in school. For example, I’m learning to live peacefully without being dependent upon my boyfriend to lay by my side at the end of the day. I’m also learning to love from a distance, to make a quick phone call to show that I’m thinking of him, without being clingy and expecting too much. Along with that, I’m learning to let go off control, and trust that our relationship will stand the test of distance and time. And if it doesn’t, I’m learning that everything is, always has been, and always will be as it should be. It’s all led me here.

Anyways, I’m getting there. Slowly and gradually, but definitely. I hope you are, too.

Emilia