Hello, I hope everyone is doing the best they can at this moment and staying healthy and safe. I think everyone right now is experiencing an increased stress added into their routine. I know this to be especially true.
I’ve never paid attention or maybe it wasn’t as obvious since I was distracted by life before COVID-19, but during this quarantine I have been feeling increasingly more anxious and stress. I have been feeling it the past 3 weeks. I am getting irritated by my family. I miss my dad, I haven’t seen him in 5 1/2 weeks ( my parents are divorced and I’m with my mom 70% of the time and this is my high school senior year.) I really miss him and I just keep thinking that I’m losing time to spend with him before I leave for college. It’s making me really depressed and he doesn’t know when he will be able to fly home. I feel conflicted because I think when he does come home do I just go with him or do I go back to the 70-30 schedule? Because since this is my last year I don’t want to just not see my mom for 4 weeks or whatever. Also another thing is, this may be selfish but I am missing my senior year, all the activities, prom graduation, getting my cap and gown and yearbook, my last dance competition and concert. All this has really put me into a depression or funk. As I’m sure a bunch of different people are going through much worse and I feel guilty for not being strong enough to cope. But I really can’t it’s hard. Online school has been awful. They are being nice but also packing on work. I feel really stressed and sad most days. I haven’t been doing much work, now I’m behind. They just suspended the school year where I am. 🙁 I keep feeling this pressure and stress on my chest and I feel energetic but like not towards my school work. I can’t focus on my work , I feel like very hwlpless and feel like crying and just forgetting everything when I think about all that I’m missing and all the work I have to do. On top of that I have to pick which college I want to go to. I’m super stressed and becoming depressed any advice or suggestions?