This is not to be a pessimist.

I mean I know to expect the best, but I also want to focus on the fact that people will 90% want something from you. To stop me from paying attention?

Not to be negative, I’m just really “overly aware” of vibes, I take on people’s vibes unconsciously. It gets in the way, but its goes so far back that i learned not to let it have much effect on me, I don’t respond,  react, or bring it into interpersonal interaction. Still it gets in the way. I want to totally move past even being aware that they’re there. Because I don’t want to care unless i have to. Empathy is good enough.  I know this!!  I want to stop feeling bad about and/or overly invested in what i sense. Because even when i vehemently say no the racket is in the back of my mind and I measure it. Its a huge distraction and draining. I want to laugh at everything and not waste my time on this kind of thing anymore I absolutely hate it.  Ever since I was three years old its been this way, so people seemed complicated to deal with. It got massively better as I got older. But I want to ignore it, I want to laugh at everything, and not have this .. waste of my mental space.

Because emotional distance via empathhy is  good enough.  Still my subconscious mind is like 1 half of velcro, and people’s emotions are everything that can possibly get stuck to velcro.