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November 10, 2016 at 6:48 pm #120087AnonymousInactive
She’s not much of a drinker, she does not like me drinking a lot because my depression. I just wanna drink! beats dealing with my depression! I am drinking as I am typing this. She’s fine if I have a few, but a lot? not really. If I had the money i’d be hammered everyday so I don’t have to deal with myself.
November 10, 2016 at 7:45 pm #120090AnonymousGuestDear blkhwkdwn1:
She doesn’t like you drinking too much, so you know she was displeased. And you are drinking now. Getting hammered is not a good thing. What can I say to a hammered blkhwkdwn1? I wish you can get better. I am sorry that you are suffering, I really am. Wish that was not the case!!!
anita
November 12, 2016 at 3:57 pm #120210AnonymousInactiveApparently it was nothing, not mad at all. Saw a post from someone saying if she was mad at a guy she would want him to text her and talk about it, so I thought maybe she’s that way too? then text her.
Me: Yo, are you mad at me or something? normally we text throughout the week since we started texting months ago and I had a weird feeling you were not happy with me for some reason after I walked you to your car.
Her: Not at all!!! just been working a lot.
Her: Had a lot of fun with you guys. 🙂
Me: Alright cool, so we good? I like texting you (I typed the name she likes the most that I told her I was going to learn) and keeping in contact with you, just had a weird feeling is all.
Her: It’s all good buddy..talk soon xo
Me: Yep. Big UFC tonight.
Me: PeaceNovember 12, 2016 at 6:57 pm #120222AnonymousGuestDear blkhwkdwn1:
Excellent exchange. Good you checked with her- that is very healthy, I am impressed, that you checked. So yes, she is very, very busy. Maybe she will be less busy when she “retires” as she told you she plans to do. She sounds like a fun and easy going person.
anita
November 13, 2016 at 9:38 pm #120330AnonymousInactiveIf she retires it will be in a year or 2 and i’ll likely never see her again, I don’t even have my drivers license. I dunno what to say to her right now…I need to stop caring for her so much, I know she does not care about me that much and we are just friends even though I’ve never asked and it’s destroying me! also what I have read online is if you tell your friends you like them they get all awkward and stop messaging you or talking to you. I still want to get her that mug idea of yours for Christmas though. I just want her to care about me like I care about her, i’d jump off a bridge for her! This threads been around here for 2 months, what do you think is going on?
If she ever found this thread things would be so awkward between us i’m sure, so i’ll make sure not to show her this thread lol.
November 14, 2016 at 9:30 am #120372AnonymousGuestDear blkhwkdwn1:
You certainly care for her a whole lot! And I too like the Christmas mug gift idea. You asked, what I think, it being the thread is long- you mean, do I think she cares for you?
If that is what you mean, then, yes, I think she cares for you. Definitely, no doubt. I also know she is way busier than you are, so she must spend less time thinking about you. When a person is so busy, their brain is occupied with the many present tasks at hand. The brain doesn’t have the time to revive past exchanges and think into the future.
Are you hoping, be it a small hope as it may be, to have an intimate, loving relationship with her in the future?
anita
November 14, 2016 at 10:01 am #120377AnonymousInactiveI’d love to have a relationship with her, I just don’t think it would be right for her. 21 year relationship with a guy who was like me, she still loves him but she’s moving on and has been single a year and a half. I think she deserves to have a better guy then me tbh, I just wish we could hang out more often and i’ll do my best to always make sure she has an awesome time. From what I have gathered the guy is supposed to do all the work. I used to be so infatuated with her and everytime I saw her I was so happy, then the day I told her I lied to her about the pills happened, then it’s kinda went away…now I just care deeply about her, I don’t even get happy when I see her, I guess i’m way more comfortable now? I dunno what I want with her, just that I wish she cared for me like I care for her. I’m sure she knows I care for her, but who knows? I’ll never tell her, i’ll just let this play out and whatever happens happens.
November 14, 2016 at 10:20 am #120379AnonymousGuestDear blkhwkdwn1:
My guess is that she knows you care for her. You used to be infatuated with her until the lie, and then the infatuated stopped, maybe because you figured that you no longer deserve her because you lied. If so, you did write that she forgave you and my position is that such a lie is indeed forgivable.
anita
November 14, 2016 at 11:12 am #120381AnonymousInactiveAlright so i’m going to try looking up places to get that coffee mug, will need a nice picture of a bee in a flower getting the nectar. Hopefully it does not break in the mail.
November 14, 2016 at 11:44 am #120382AnonymousGuestDear blkhwkdwn1:
You will not give the gift to her in person? What if you gave her the mug in person, wrapped in a gift paper. When she opens it and is (hopefully) fascinated with it, noticing the bee and saying something about the bee getting the nectar, then you take from right behind you, the honey tube and hand it to her, as a continuation of the bee-getting-the-nectar theme?
anita
November 14, 2016 at 12:01 pm #120388AnonymousInactiveI mean when they send it to me. I’ll give it to her in person, but things break a lot in the mail when things are “delicate”. I’ll wear a santa beard and give out candy canes to everyone in the restaurant aswell.
November 14, 2016 at 12:13 pm #120390AnonymousGuestDear blkhwkdwn1:
Your plan makes a delightful visual! (Tell the shippers to pack the mug well so it doesn’t break!)
anitaNovember 14, 2016 at 3:40 pm #120405AnonymousInactiveWell I caught her on the end of her break, she’s disappointed in me right now.
Me: Yo, you working today?
Her: Yep..all night 🙁
Me: $$$
Her: I know, your right lol
Me: Makes the world go round and round unfortunately. Enjoying day 2 of 3 off…got almost blacked out drunk watching UFC, still dunno if McGregor won the fight. Too bad you didn’t come, was a good fight and 8 of us.
Her: Too much drink I think pat
Her: Shouldn’t drink with the meds
Me: Yeah about that…
Her: Are you still taking them? I hope
Her: Tell the truth
Her: No judgement
Her: I ate wheat twice. Broke the oath..tummy doesn’t feel too good after
Her: Been good though
Me: I kinda got into a rage fit with myself last week and threw them into the garbage and started drinking a lot again.
Her: Pat! noooo!
Her: Atleast stop drinking
Me: It’s hard now
Her: Please it just makes things worse
Her: We will have to make a new challenge..no drinking..no wheat?
Her: I wish u could see a phycologist. Fast 🙁
Her: Theres a lot going on inside..
Me: I’ve been this way for a LONG time, I still get those thoughts constantly
Her: Agggg
Her: Must be so frusterating!
Me: Enough about me though
Her: I have to go soon..just on a break
Her: About to move my car
Me: Where is your car?
Me: Have a great shift, message you later
Her: Have to move it so I don’t get a ticket
Her: Ok..ttys pat
Her: I’m disappointed..i want you to feel better
Her: But I kind of understand <3November 14, 2016 at 7:39 pm #120415AnonymousGuestDear blkhwkdwn1:
She reads like such a genuinely nice person, very patient, kind, gentle. I am impressed! I am really impressed, I don’t often come across such gentleness and patience as she reveals. When she wrote that she is disappointed, it is understandable that she is, but notice the end of her sentence there “I want you to feel better… I kind of understand.”
My hat is off to her. What a special person you have in your life! Keep this friendship going, blkhwkdwn1. She is a rare gem. And the fact that she is so caring about you means to me that indeed, she sees you as a worthy, valuable person. I think she thinks highly of you and I am so glad this is so.
anita
November 14, 2016 at 8:54 pm #120427AnonymousInactiveAfter I wrote that she said some more.
Her: Not good for you!
Her: Eat healthy, exercise and try to have fun
Me: I wanna get into movement training, I showed you a video of a guy doing it and you said it looks like capoeira and modern dance
Me: Another video of it
Me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W0Wr7HsylE0I’ll message her soon and hope her night went well. Now you know why I said everyone loves her, she’s amazing and deserves a guy way better then me and why i’ll likely not pursue her.
Me: Hope your night went awesome, later
Her: Yes it went well thnx
Her: Not very busy
Her: So are the pills gone?
Me: I’ll take you up for that challenge…no beer for me and no wheat for you
Her: Way to deflect
Me: Pills are still in the garbage, not thrown them out yet
Her: Yuck
Her: I wish you hadn’t
Her: How long ago was that?
Me: Thursday I think
Her: Is the garbage all yucky?
Her: You went almost 2 weeks taking them?
Me: Nope, mostly wrappers
Me: Yep
Her: Will you consider taking them again? you didn’t give them enough time again
Her: And go see dr again
Her: Ask about therapy
Me: Alright
Her: UP TO YOU..I WAS JUST SUGGESTING
Her: U went 2 weeks!
Her: Thank you for listening..and I’m sorry for prying
Her: Just worry
Her: Ok keep me posted
Me: Alright
Her: Best thing would be to take the meds and not drink at all patI stopped texting at that point, seemed she was getting angry.
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