Just over 4 hours ago, Israel attacked Iran’s nuclear and ballistic rocket sites.

Iran has threatened to destroy Israel for over 4 decades. Iran is expected to retaliate. All flights to and from Israel’s Ben Gurion airport have been cancelled. All passengers removed from the airport. All schools closed. All residents told to stay inside their apartments, close to safe rooms (reinforced security rooms built into homes and buildings to protect residents from missile attacks, bomb blasts, and chemical threats). No shopping, no activity outdoors, for as long as it takes.

Iran may be sending ballistic rockets directly into Israel, and/ or through its proxies in Lebanon, Yaman, Gaza… but most likely, directly from Iran.

Now, thing is, on a very personal level: I was born in Israel and throughout my youth, living there, there were always threats to DESTROY Israel. There were terrorist attacks within and wars without. I remember the sirens.

Now, because of technology- Iran has been getting close to thoroughly destroying Israel. Iran’s rulers certainly have the desire and the growing capabilities.

But back to the personal level, truly- the threats that scared me most were my own mother’s threats to kill me, or as she phrased it, to “MURDER” me.

Within the attacked, Israel- the country- there was my personal attacker, my mother.

It still.. bamboozles me.. a mother threatening to MURDER her own daughter, repeatedly.

Unforgivable.

I mean.. Alessa, your experience comes to mind, your bio mother’s threats. I am so very sorry, Alessa, that you went through something similar.

It’s difficult to process this. How do you get over your own mother expressing homicidal ideation in regard to.. you, her own daughter, WHICH SO HAPPENS TO HAVE BEEN.. ME?

This realization right here, right now, may put an ending to any love I have ever had for her.

I mean, if you are reading this, how do you respond to a person threatening to MURDER you? How do you emotionally regulate this threat?

I am at this point, I think, of letting go of any love for my mother. I would excuse and forgive a lot, except for her repeating threat to.. quote, her words: “I WILL MURDER YOU!”

Case closed. May you rest in peace, “mother”, not a mother. Shame on you! No excuses. Case Closed!

It’s 9:33 pm here. it’s still light outside. I am anxious about what news I’ll be reading about Israel in about 6-8 hours from now, when I am awake again.

Anita

Dear Alessa:

I am truly grateful for your support. I feel incredibly fortunate and deeply thankful for you. 🙏😊❤️❤️❤️

Anita

One day at a time. One night at a time.

One hour at a time.

So much HATE in our very troubled world.

One hour, one minute at a time-

Alive Today, Alive this Minute.. why, it’s a Miracle.

Anita

Hello Everyone/ Anyone:

I am scared. There are real, objective reasons for me to be scared, scared for the safety and lives of a few people I feel close to in real-life.

A few are in danger- in addition to their mental and physical struggles as well as every day risks such as traffic accidents- they are in danger of being bombed by Iran. Another person elsewhere is in deep depression that seems to be getting worse. I suspect suicide ideation is strong on their mind.

This is a heavy weight for me to carry. And yet, I have to be strong. But how can I be wiser? What can I do to help, if at all possible?

People in deep depression close-in, they become inaccessible, drowning in negativity, no longer seeing what is positive.

The older I get, the more I see people as equal, meaning- if I can help a “stranger” here on tiny buddha, just a bit, that’s as valuable as helping a person in real-life. A “stranger” online is as valuable, their pain matters just as much.

There really are no strangers, just people we didn’t get to know yet. In this regard, family members and people we associate with every day- can be strangers.

Back to my worries: One Day, One Moment At A Time is mt strategy.

Patience and Perseverance. And Love is what’s required.

Anita