Hello
Well, this is a little background: A couple of years ago I had a relationship where I was really insecure, codependent, and with some problems of depression.
Of course this person walked away, I really loved him but my lack of maturity didnt let me realize how bad it was, so when he left I felt a lot of blame, pain and it was hard to let go all that guilt and forgive myself, it was really a hard time.

We walked away from each other and after all that guilt-dealing I forgave myself to finally letting me grow.
Then we tried to be friends and that didnt worked out, I acted the same way, and it was the same cicle of bad acts, hurtin and blame so I walked away, again…

Now its been a while, and he text me from time to time but although the time pass and I think “Im better, now I can handle it” I cant, I dont know why when I talk to him or im with him all the insecurity and all of that come out, the thing is that its only whit him, when im with other people im in peace and like myself, but whit him I lost contol of my emotions, its like he brings out my dark side but he dont do anything to provoke me, is just me. I dont want to be like this whit him, of course no, but its like hard impulses I cant control ITS FREAKIN HARD, again I feel this way only with him
why?
what you guys think its wrong?