I put my ego aside and asked her again. This time like she said I planned ahead.Still no teply.It looks like she is angry with me now after our conversation.I dont wamt to talk to her anymore.

<p style=”text-align: left;”>Honestly I dont want have to the conversation about my past.Most indians especially my friend doesnt understand childhood trauma or anxiety.I told her how I felt.Then she got defensive.Started blaming me.If she doesnt want to put the effort then I dont care.I know it hurts but I dont want to be a victim.Thats how some friends.They change when they meet new people.It happened earlier with two of ky friends.They create the distanace but still i put the efforts.Finally when i give up they blame for the distance.I want to move on.Its pretty clear now that she is busy during the weekend with her new set of friends and I know she doesnt want to talk to me anymore.</p>

I am not sure even if its related to childhood trauma.You get hurt when someone who is close  to you suddenly drifts apart from you once they meet new people.This has been happening since last year.Do you still go put in the efforts, even if they say no to you? I have accepeted it and moved on.Suddenly she comes to me and tells me i have become so busy that I dont have time to text her.We both have a mutual friend  B, who told me that she is saying no to her a lot lately.Generally we three used to meet everytime. We both met last week.B didnot want to call her this time because she was saying no to them.I told B lets not do that and call her.She called my neighbor and she said no again.She was busy partying other group of friends.But when i asked her the same thing she doesnt accept the fact but in return she started blaming that I am saying no to her.I did say to no her couple of times, because i was on my period and the other time my little one was hurt.We did send my little one everytime to her house when she called us.Because little one loves to play with her daughter.Now I am scarred she would cause any drama by telling others i had hurt her because i have had the same thing happen with other friends who would always blame and create the drama.

I love that prayer and I use it everyday. I am extremely stressed about this friendship. I keep going back and forth. My friend texted me today as reply for the message that I sent on Thursday. It looks like she archived my chat we have this feature on WhatsApp where you can archive the chats into separate folder so that you wont able to see thier messages. I cried on Friday like how she ignored my message. Its pretty clear that she is ignoring me now  as I told ger to stop expecting from me. I kept my ego aside, I planned a kids play date  to  go for  pumpkin patch with her on Saturday and I texted her on Thursday. Today she texted me saying that the other group already planned on Wednesday so she went with them on Sunday. The other thing she told me was her husband told my husband that as they are busy on Saturday we can go together  on Tuesday. My little one has a class on Tuesday  so we went on Saturday. As my little one gets bored on the weekends. I want to leave this friendship but I just keep going back and forth like an idiot. I dont know I feel like I cant take thier rejection anymore. On top of that she is ignoring my texts now. Now its pretty clear that they are busy with other group during the weekends. During our conversation, she did not agree with that instead she blamed me that I wasnt planning early and she told me that she is pretty busy during the weekdays. Now I planned early she said no and  they are planned on the weekdays. I want to cut this off. I  want to stop asking them when we go out. I want go out and make new friends. But I am unable to move on as I am scared she would blame me if i move on. She already blamed me for not texting. I am scared she would blame if i stop asking her or texting her.

That makes me so anxious.