Dear Zenith:

I’m glad your present-moment anxiety feels more manageable than the weight of the future—and how beautiful that you and your mum share that kind of mutual care. It’s not always easy to feel seen in our efforts, but hearing she says you take good care of her… that matters.

if you’re ever unsure whether you’re doing enough, maybe that reflection from her is proof: you’re already giving what your heart knows how to give. 🤍

Anita

Dear Zenith:

It sounds like your MIL treats your co-sister as more special, and that understandably makes you feel left out or less valued. Even though she’s nice to you, it still hurts when the treatment isn’t equal—especially when your little one notices it too. That must have been hard.

I also hear that you feel pressured to do things you don’t really want to do—like showing your jewelry or giving updates—just to avoid conflict. It makes sense that you’re now wishing you had said no, and that you’ve been feeling stuck between keeping peace and standing up for yourself.

You’re not wrong to want respect and fairness. You deserve that. And it’s okay to feel upset when things don’t feel balanced. You’re simply asking for basic emotional respect.

This morning, I noticed something—maybe for the first time. When your feelings are uncomfortable or might lead to conflict, you seem to minimize them. You soften them with “lol” or tell yourself things like: “I let it go,” “I’m fine as long as my MIL gives her special treatment,” “I don’t feel jealous,” “I’ve accepted it and moved on.”-

It’s like you’re trying to talk yourself out of your own truth—as if your feelings aren’t valid unless they’re calm, agreeable, or conflict-free. But the fact that you’re still obsessing, still upset, shows that those feelings didn’t go away—they were just pushed down.

Scientifically speaking, trying to suppress emotionally charged thoughts often leads to what’s called a “rebound effect,” where the thoughts come back stronger and more persistent. Suppression doesn’t resolve the emotion—it just buries it, allowing it to fester and fuel obsessive loops.

Obsession can be the mind’s way of trying to resolve what the heart hasn’t had permission to feel.

Taking a stand—asserting yourself—can begin with something quiet but powerful: giving yourself permission to feel what you feel, without judgment.

Here are a few gentle practices that might help:

1) Mantras for Emotional Permission- Repeating mantras can help shift your inner dialogue. Here are a few that might resonate:

“My feelings are valid, even if others don’t understand them.”

“I allow myself to feel without judgment.”

“I am safe to feel what I feel.”

“I honor my truth, even when it’s unpleasant.”

“I am at peace with my thoughts.”

“I accept myself fully.”

“I embrace my imperfections with love.” (Source: Up Journey – Mantras for Emotional Healing)

2) Writing Exercise: The Emotion I’m Avoiding- You can do this privately or here in your thread. Just write freely in response to these prompts:

“Which emotion am I trying to avoid right now?”

“Why might I be avoiding it?”

“What does this emotion need from me?”

“What would happen if I allowed myself to feel it fully?”

Expressive writing like this has been shown to improve mood, immune function, and emotional clarity. (Source: Psych Central – Journal Prompts to Heal Emotions)

What do you think about what I wrote here, Zenith?

Anita

Oh, yes, I remember now. In my response earlier today I completely forgot the respect for elders cultural nuance. I am sorry for the confusion, Zenith.

Integrating this nuance now, I’d say: if this is the cultural norm, then it’s not personal. Whether you accept this part of the culture or fight it- that’s your personal choice (I know you are a rebel in this regard).

If I was you, while in India (as long as the room I am given is uncomfortably small), I would accept the situation.. But when they all visit me.. guess who gets the small room.. lol.

Anita