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  • #145593

    anita
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    Dear Free Moon:

    There is  a way to heal from such past injury as you experienced and to have a healthy relationship with your boyfriend. Really, there is and it is very possible for you. Best place to start this healing work is in competent psychotherapy.

    You wrote: “I was so jealous of their relationship because my mom was paying more attention to the nanny than me, and it felt as if she was wishing for her to be the daughter instead. Of course, that’s not the case…Yeah… I was a weird kid.”

    You were not a weird kid. You did not imagine things. Children are very good at perceiving people and situations as they truly are because of lack of previous experiences. Without previous experiences, there is no distortions of reality.

    Your mother, in reality, gave you very little attention, way less than a child needs. When the nanny was around, your mother, in reality, paid attention to the nanny while mostly ignoring you. You needed her to pay attention to you so intensely and she didn’t.  That hurt you a whole lot and you were jealous of the nanny.

    In competent psychotherapy, with an empathetic, hard working therapist, you can process these strong childhood emotions and put them to rest. Is such therapy possible for you?

    anita

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    #145799

    Free Moon
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    @anita,

    I think it is possible for me. There is counselling for depression and anxiety in my area that might help me overcome this situation.

    Meanwhile, what can I do on my personal time to achieve such goal of not fearing fear?

    #145811

    anita
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    Dear Free Moon:

    I hope the counseling will work for you, that you will let the counselor know specifically, best you can, what you need help with.

    Your goal is “not fearing fear”- let’s look at this goal. Do you mean that you want to live without fear? And can you state your fear in a sentence?

    anita

    #145839

    Free Moon
    Participant

    @anita,

    I want to live where if fear comes, I am able to just watch it without letting it affect me.

    My fear is being left alone or replaced…

    #145849

    anita
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    Dear Free Moon:

    You can do the following: write or type a page describing your experience as a child, being in the company of the nanny and your mother, while your mother was attending to the nanny in loving ways, ignoring you. Type what you heard your mother say to the nanny, the emotion in her voice as she said what she did, her actions toward the nanny. Describe what you were thinking, feeling, and doing at the time it happened.

    If you want, draw a picture of that scene, draw it in a child like manner, the way a child would  draw herself, the nanny, the mother, in that scene.

    When you are done, you have this paper with you. You can make a few copies of it. Keep a copy in your purse so you have it wherever you go. Have a copy at home. Then, whenever you think of your boyfriend and his female friend, take the paper out and look at the picture, read the words, either one, or both.

    This way, you switch from the false perception of the current situation to the true perception of the past situation that keeps inserting itself into the current one. If you try this, let me know how it works..?

    anita

    #146369

    Free Moon
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    @anita,

    I will try to do that! It seems like a more hands-on way of dealing with the anxiety.

    How can I let my boyfriend help me? He tries to understand me, but I know he doesn’t understand completely which is okay.

    #146387

    anita
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    Dear Free Moon:

    One way you can have your boyfriend help you regarding this issue is without him even knowing about it: when you are with him and you think about the female friend (or she is present), and as you think you feel distress, do the following: take his hand in yours and hold it, feel the warmth of it, and say to yourself: he loves me. Or you can hug him, ask for a hug or just hug him, say the same to yourself.

    This way you counter the distress with comforting physical touch.

    You can also share with him a bit about the nanny experience, and how that fuels your distress with the female friend. When you share, do so responsibly, letting him know that this issue predated him and is not of his doing, or for him to fix. You want to let him know so that he understands you, what fuels that distress. Express your hurt over the nanny experience, again, responsibly, that is not by going on and on and on and crying (not that I have a reason to think that you will), but show the hurt some.

    That will encourage him to express his hurts to you if and when they come up, bringing the two of you even closer to each other.

    anita

    #146529

    Free Moon
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    @anita,

    Oddly enough, when I start to feel so down about it, I just want to hug my boyfriend tight. Even the thought of having that physical contact with him already feels a bit calming to me. I will start doing that if/when I start to feel uncomfortable and upset.

    I do think I should share the story about the nanny with him because it would help him better understand why I feel the way I do.

    #146583

    anita
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    Dear Free Moon:

    If you share this with him, being the decent, loving guy that he is, as I understand, he will feel closer to you, and love you even more.

    Post again, anytime.

    anita

    #146691

    Free Moon
    Participant

    @anita,

    I cannot thank you enough for the help you’ve given me. You are a wonderful human being. 🙂

    #146703

    anita
    Participant

    Thank you Free Moon, and you are very welcome. Post again anytime and I will respond.

    anita

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